Page 20 of Christmas with Holly

“Absolutely,” Jill said, “as long as you practice safe driving.”

After lunch, they stopped by Rocket Donuts at Maggie’s insistence. She ordered a selection of doughnuts that included oblong confections covered with maple frosting and topped with strips of bacon, doughnuts crusted with chunks of Oreo cookies, and fried cake doughnuts drenched in Guittard Chocolate.

“Those are for Dad, of course,” Jill said.

“Yep.”

“Mom will kill you,” Jill said. “She’s been trying to cut back his cholesterol.”

“I know. But he texted me this morning, begging me to bring him a box.”

“You’re an enabler, Maggie.”

“I know. That’s why he loves me best.”

The long driveway leading up to the house was congested with a half-dozen vehicles, the three-quarter-acre lot swarming with children. A few of them ran to Maggie, one of them showing her where he had lost a tooth, another trying to entice her into a game of hide-and-seek. Laughing, Maggie promised to play with them later.

Entering the house, Maggie went to the kitchen, where her mother and a group of siblings and in-laws were all busy cooking. She kissed her mother, a voluptuous but trim woman with a silver-gray bob and a beautiful complexion that had no need of makeup. She was wearing an apron that proclaimed:SEEN IT ALL, HEARD IT ALL, DONE IT ALL. JUST CAN’T REMEMBER IT ALL.

“Those are not for your father, are they?” her mother asked, with a stern glance at the box of doughnuts.

“It’s full of celery and carrot sticks,” Maggie said. “The box is just for presentation.”

“Your dad’s in the living room,” her mother said. “We finally got surround sound, and he’s been glued tothe TV ever since. He says the gunshots sound real now.”

“If that’s what he wanted, you could have just driven him to Tacoma,” one of her brothers said.

Maggie grinned as she went to the living room.

Her father occupied the corner of a big boxy sofa with a sleeping baby on his lap. As Maggie walked into the room, his gaze fell to the box of doughnuts in her arms. “My favorite daughter,” he said.

“Hi, Dad.” Leaning over, Maggie kissed him on the head and placed the box on his lap.

Her father rummaged through the box, found a maple-bacon doughnut, and began to devour it with an expression of bliss. “Come sit by me. And take the baby…I need two hands for this.”

Carefully Maggie settled the warm, sleepy weight of the baby onto her shoulder. “Whose is he?” she asked. “I don’t recognize this one.”

“I have no idea. Someone handed him to me.”

“Is he one of your grandchildren?”

“Could be.”

Maggie answered questions about the store, and the latest goings-on at Friday Harbor, and whether she had met anyone interesting lately. She hesitated just long enough to make his eyes brighten with interest.

“Aha. Who is he, and what does he do?”

“Oh, it’s no one, he’s…there’s nothing. He’s taken. I talked to him on the ferry on the way over here.” Feeling the baby twitch in his sleep, she put her hand on his tiny back, soothing him with a circling stroke. “I think I sort of accidentally flirted with him.”

“Is that bad?”

“Maybe not, but it makes me wonder…how do I know when I’m ready to start going out again?”

“I’d say involuntary flirting is a sign.”

“I feel weird about it. I was attracted to him even though he’s nothing like Eddie.”

Eddie, before his illness, had been sunny, lighthearted, a prankster. The man she had spent time with this morning was darker, quieter, with a reserve that hinted of deeply felt intensity. She hadn’t been able to stop from imagining, in the most private corner of her mind, about physical intimacy with him, and it had seemed so potentially volatile that it had scared her. And yet that was part of the attraction. She remembered having wanted Eddie because he had been safe. But now she had caught herself wanting Mark Nolan for the exact opposite reason.

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