Page 73 of Intercept My Heart

“Don’t Tamia me. How are you going to find a man if you’re letting him beat your walls loose every chance he gets? You won’t have any pussy left to give anyone else with the way you’ve been getting your back blown seven ways from Sunday. You keep saying the two of you are only co-parenting, but I wasn’t aware that fucking was in the best interest of the children.” I sat there while she read me for filth.

“I—”

“I bet you don’t have much to say, do you?”

“What do you want me to say?”

“The truth, duh. When was the last time the two of you fucked?” I opened my mouth and then closed it right back. Dinero and I had been fucking like rabbits for months now. I felt like a teenager all over again with the way we’d been sneaking behind the kids’ backs. “Umm, this morning, after the boys went to school.” Laiti cracked up laughing while Tamia gave me a side eye.

“Exactly. This is my point. You’re talking about dating when we both know he isn’t going to let that happen. I want you to be honest with yourself about what you really want because it’s obvious. The two of you have been behaving like long-lost lovers since you swabbed my nephews, and it’s time for you to really sit down and have an honest conversation about what’s going on. If you don’t discuss what the two of you are doing, then you’re not only going to confuse the boys but yourself as well.”

“I know. I’m so conflicted about everything. It feels like everything is happening so fast. We went from not being in each other’s lives to seeing each other almost daily. Now, I’m fucking him on my lunch breaks and anywhere else we can find time. I’ve tried to cut him off so we don’t blur the lines. However, the minute I try to stand on business, my legs end up on his shoulders. The only reason I’ve avoided having the conversation is because I don’t know what I want,” I admitted, being honest with myself for the first time in a long time.

“I think you know exactly what you want, but you’re afraid to go after it. Everyone around the two of you can see the chemistry as clear as day, yet you’re trying to sit here acting like you don’t know what you feel. The love you had for that man is still as strong as it was back then, and the more time you spend with him, the more you start to remember how good things used to be between the two of you. There’s no need to pretend, because it’s natural. The two of you were split due to some unfortunateevents, but you have unfinished business. Maybe you need to stop being a scary ho and talk to him.”

“And say what? I love him, and I want to be with him? Nothing about that sounds like a good idea right now. What about Cash and Moolah? How will they feel if we get back together?”

“What about them? They will still have both of their parents, whether the two of you end up together or not. I’m not saying you shouldn’t consider their feelings, but ultimately, you are grown. As long as you aren’t doing anything to put them in harm’s way, you are free to do what you want. Money seems like a good man, so it’s not like he would walk away from them if you two don’t work out.”

“I don’t like the fact that you’re right. I’m usually the one making the valid points.” I pouted with my arms folded across my chest.

“Yeah, you need to do better, love.”

“Things are going so well between Dinero and the twins. Everybody is so happy, and I don’t want to mess things up. A relationship could complicate things for us, and I’m trying to avoid that.”

“And your solution is to keep fucking him because that will somehow keep the confusion down?” Laiti interjected. Now it felt like the two of them were ganging up on me.

“It wasn’t supposed to be like this, but sex with him is addicting. One hit, and I’m ready to risk it all. To be fair, I’ve gone a very long time without being touched, so having a man who already knows my body and all my spots is a top-tier feeling. I’m not ready to give it up yet,” I reasoned.

“You are as bad as we are. You are using that man to fulfill your sexual needs without any strings attached.” Tamia called me out, and I had no rebuttal.

“If we’ve learned nothing else from those dating shows, it’s that as soon as you add emotions to the mix, men start acting weird. Right now, I’m at peace, and I don’t feel like rocking the boat if I don’t have to.” My phone chimed, indicating an incoming text. When I opened the message, I covered my mouth to hide the smile on my face.

Dinero:

I keep having flashbacks of you riding my dick. I have a few hours to spare before I have to head to the field. Are you free?

“Sis, you’ve got it bad. You’re over there cheesin’ like a damn fool, and there’s only one man who can bring that kind of smile out of you.

Dinero:

Tell your girls you have to leave. I need that pussy on my tongue, and I don’t want to wait.

My clit thumped, and my wetness seeped into my panties. He didn’t have to do too much convincing because I was ready for him too.

“Umm, what time are we supposed to go get our nails done?”

Tamia gave me another side-eye, but I tried my best to ignore her.

“Bitch, I know you’re lying. There is no way you think you’re about to leave our girls’ day pampering for some pickle. No, ma’am.”

“I forgot something at home, so I was going to run and grab it before we head to our next destination.” I lied right through my teeth.

“Rae, you’ve always been a shitty liar, and nothing has changed. That man has you open like windows at a car wash,and you’re drowning fast, bitch. You can’t even contain your excitement from a text message, but you want to act like you don’t want that man. Please go to hell,” Laiti fussed.

“Am I being too thirsty?”

“Yes. You need some damn water,” Tamia retorted.

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