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“I’m sick of not knowing! I want to have sex! I want to know what it feels like to be with a man and if I want to have sex with a thousand men, then that’s my business, buddy!” Jamie snapped, giving him a good shove. “And if you don’t like it, then that’s too bad!” she said, giving him one final shove that knocked him back onto his ass on the edge of the bed.

She turned to grab her computer and storm off when he found himself saying something that he knew that he’d regret. “I’ll teach you.”

CHAPTER 14

Was it possible to die from embarassment?

Jamie was pretty sure she was about to find out. Did he just offer her sympathy sex? Admittedly, she didn’t know much about sex, but she didn’t think that she wanted some guy having sex with her because he felt bad for her.

She wanted what the heroines in her books got from their men, passion and desire. She wanted a man who couldn’t keep his hands off her, not a man who was willing to do the unthinkable.

“Um,” Jamie cleared her throat uncomfortably, “no thanks. I’ll just stick to videos and books.”

Nick’s eyes narrowed on her as he got to his feet. “I meant,” he bit out tightly, “that I’d help you, not that I would sleep with you, Jamie.”

“Oh...” she said, thinking it over before asking, “Why?”

“Why what?” he snapped, looking angry as he walked over to her computer to check something.

“Why do you care?”

“I need you healthy and whole to do this tour, Jamie,” Nick explained, keeping it short and sweet, but she got the point. He was only offering to help her for his job, not because he cared.It was foolish, but she couldn’t help but feel a little disappointed that he didn’t care.

Maybe that was for the best, Jamie decided. If they kept a professional distance, she’d feel more comfortable about asking him questions. If they were friends, she probably wouldn’t feel comfortable with some of the questions that she was dying to ask.

“Okay, where do we start,” Jamie asked brightly, ignoring his scowl as he gestured for her to sit on the couch.

Trying to hide her nerves, she quickly sat down at the end of the small sofa. Nick sent her a questioning look but said nothing as he turned the television on and went to the pay-per-view menu. When he scrolled down a list of titles that could only be adult movies she gasped and lunged for the remote.

“What are you doing?” Jamie demanded as she did her best to steal the remote away from him before he could do something that would destroy them both.

“I’m helping you go through your list,” Nick said, holding the remote just out of her reach as he selected a movie.

“Oh, my God!” she gasped. “They’ll know!”

“Who?” he asked, frowning.

“Everyone!”

“That I watched a skin flick?” Nick asked, frowning.

“Yes!” Jamie hissed as she shot a nervous look at the door, half expecting someone to break down the door to yell at them.

“No one’s going to care as long as I pay for it, and besides, no one will know you watched it, Jamie. This isn’t your room,” he pointed out.

“Oh,” Jamie mumbled quietly, thinking it over and realizing that he was right.

As long as no one said anything, no one would have to know that she watched this with him. Maybe it would be for the best if she let him help her with this, just the learning and askingquestions part. For the rest, she’d find a man who wanted her, which she hoped wouldn’t be too difficult because she was ready to have sex soon.

Well, if they were going to do this, then they needed to do it right, Jamie thought as she quickly made her way to the door.

“Where are you going?”

“To get my notebook!” she yelled over her shoulder as she threw the door open and raced out of the room.

“You’re kidding, right?”

Nick shota look over at his little recluse as she scribbled something else down on her notebook and couldn’t help but sigh. She hadn’t been kidding, after all. Fifteen minutes into the movie and the woman hadn’t stopped writing for more than a second.

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