“Over my heart, where you will always be,” he said with a nod.
“What if … what if I choose a different mate?” I asked, not daring to look up at him.
“It doesn’t change that you will always be the one who has my heart and soul.”
Sucking in a shuddering breath, I looked up at him. “I don’t know if I can live up to or be what you would want or need me to be. I’m always trying to fit in a role that I don’t think I’m fit to be in. I shouldn’t be a princess with this darkness, this desire for blood and destruction that’s getting stronger as I get older. Should I even have mates, let alone strong alphas like you when you should be furthering our species with another strong hybrid or someone from one of the other clans?”
His brows furrowed. “You are more than your title. You are one of the most amazing women I have ever encountered. I have traveled all over this world, met many women, and you are by far the only one who has ever captured my attention.”
“That’s only because you knew me growing up. Because you were basically groomed to want to have me as a mate.”
This negative talk wasn’t something I normally allowed or accepted within myself. Why was it happening more and more often?
Mason gripped me by my neck, tilted my head up, and glared down into my eyes. “You are the greatest woman in existence. It’s absolutely ridiculous of me to even breathe the same air as you, let alone be able to view your perfect naked body or touch it. Even though you won’t be queen, youarea queen. You always have been in my eyes. I would follow you to the ends of the universe so long as it meant spending more time in your presence.”
“I—”
He pressed his lips to mine, his arm wrapped around my lower back, and he pushed me back against the wall of the shower. His erection pulsed between us and I wanted him in me more than I wanted anything ever.
“Please,” I begged him. “I want you, Mason. Please.”
“This had not been my plan,” he said as he kissed his way down my throat and between my breasts. “I’d wanted to fool around, but not?—”
“Mason, I don’t care what your plan was,” I snapped and reached down between us to grip his erection.
He moaned and thrust into my hand. His hand slid down until he slipped two fingers inside of me, feeling how wet I was. Removing his fingers, he grabbed my hips, lifted me up, and impaled me on his cock, thrusting into me as he pushed me against the wall of the shower.
“Yes!” I screamed, put my arms around his neck, and rode him as he thrust into me.
He licked and sucked at my neck, moving down to suck my nipple into his mouth.
I gasped and arched back, giving him easier access and enjoying the way it felt.
His tongue lapped at my nipple as I rode him and came, screaming his name.
He found his relief soon after, grunting and biting gently into my shoulder, but thankfully not enough to mark me … yet.
“What did you mean about feeling a pull to me?” I asked as he washed me with a soapy loofa. Mason had insisted on washing me to erase his scent, not because he was embarrassed or didn’t want others to know, but because he thought it might upset Kayden, who was supposed to pick me up in less than two hours.
“You know how it feels to be around Leona and Jolie, that addictive joy? It’s sort of like that, but there’s also a literal pull, like you’re a magnet and we’re metal drawn to you. I could close my eyes and as you moved around a room, I would know exactly where you are.”
“How long have you felt that?” I asked, my throat feeling tighter.
He continued washing me gently, so careful and tender, so unlike Mason was in everyday life, especially with others. He had always been kind to me, more so than with others, but this was another level than what I’d experienced. “I’ve felt this way since we were teenagers I believe, but it could have started before that.”
I needed to talk to Great Aunt Leona. I needed to find out if there was a way to stop this from happening. Even if that meant they were no longer interested in me.
Chapter
Fifteen
I’d promised to message Mason with a day for our second date tomorrow after I had a chance to look over my calendar. I needed to schedule second dates with Liam, Trey, and Mason.
Remembering Liam had messaged me after the demon incident, I called him back.
“Are you okay?” he asked as soon as he picked up. “I saw the video and saw you pass out at the end.”
“Yes, I’m okay. I appreciate your concern,” I replied.