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“You didn’t know?” he asks. I shake my head no. “It’s Brad’s baby, then?”

“I’m sorry, Remy. I didn’t plan this, I swear to you!” Tears roll down my cheeks now as he watches me.

“Of course you didn’t. I’m sure that sick fuck did, though. Anything to keep you in line!” He roars before punching the wall next to us. I startle, but I don’t move. I stand here, still, not knowing what’s going to happen next.

“I’m sorry. I don’t even know if I want to keep it,” I tell him. Now, his head swivels around, and his eyes meet mine.

“What?”

“I don’t know if I want to keep it. That’s why I was waiting to tell you.”

“You wouldn’t want your own baby?”

“I … I don’t know! I don’t know anything anymore!”

“It’s a part of you, Tianna! How could you even think about givin’ that up?”

“It’s a part of Brad! A piece of him I never wanted!”

“You don’t even know it’s his!” He screams at me. Then I see it. The look in his eyes changes. What does that mean? How could it possibly be anyone else’s? He knows something. Something he isn’t telling me.

“You wanted the truth from me now I want it from you. What are you hiding?” I ask, keeping my tone calm.

“I’m not doin’ this right now,” he says before moving toward the door. I quickly rush in front of him, blocking the door.

“You just made me tell you, Remy, now goddamn it tell me!”

“I can’t do this,” he says, trying to move around me. I place my arms out to the sides and stand firm.

“Tell me,” I demand.

“I don’t … I don’t wanna fuckin’ do this, Tianna! Don’t you see that? I don’t wanna hurt you any more than you’ve already been hurt! This is tearin’ me the fuck up inside, and I can’t do that to you!” I can feel the pain in him. I can see it all in his eyes. Whatever it is is bad.

“You don’t have a fucking choice, Remy. You wanted me, right? All of me? Then I want the same.”

“Don’t make me do this, baby. Please.” He’s begging. And Remy doesn’t beg. He never has so why is he now? My chest rises and falls rapidly because I can feel it deep inside of me. Something bad is going to come out of his mouth. “Let’s just go out there and grab a drink and calm down, yeah?” He leans down and presses his lips to mine, but I shake my head. I need to know.

“I deserve to know what’s going on, Remy. Can’t you at least give me that?”

“Do you realize how much I love you?” he asks.

“I love you too. And if this thing is going to work between us, then we can’t keep having secrets.” I watch him struggle internally with whatever this is. I watch him battle himselfbefore he presses his lips to mine one more time. This time, I let him kiss me. Because I know once the words leave his mouth, something is going to happen.

Remy pulls back and lowers his hands to his side.

“I don’t wanna hurt you, Tianna.”

“Then tell me the truth. Is it a club girl? Are you with someone?” He shakes his head.

“No. I’m not with anyone but you.”

“Then what the hell is going on?”

“Baby, please. Can’t we just drop it for now? I’ll tell you, just not now.”

“No. Tell me what the fuck is going on, Remy!” I snap at him. I see his control break. His hands come up to tug at his hair as he spins around and walks a little. He’s pacing and stalling.

“You remember, you made me do this.”

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