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I’m having the best time with them when I feel a hand slip around my waist. Instantly, I freeze. My mind shifts back to Brad. What if he found me? What if he comes here?

“You look awful sexy dancin’ like that,” Remy whispers in my ear. Slowly, my body relaxes into his touch. I’m safe here. I’m safe with him. Those words repeat in my head and apparently from my lips.

“You are safe with me,” he agrees. His hand stays where it is, his lips near my ear. I suck in a breath, not sure what to do here. He’s so close. It’s so … real. Then I feel his teeth tug on my ear, and I almost lose my footing. My knees feel like they’re going to buckle but this is how he is when he comes back from one of these runs. Slowly, I spin around, his hand coming to rest on my back. I look up at him and see the look of lust in his eyes.

“I can’t be what you need,” I tell him truthfully.

“What do you mean? You’re all I’ve ever needed, Tianna.”

“Not like this. Not when you come back from whatever you’ve been doing.”

“We haven’t been doin’ anything. Is that what you think this is?” Now he steps away from me, and I miss the contact.

“Isn’t it? This is how it’s always gone, Remy. You go out, and you come back and fuck me how you need.” Remy nods his head but doesn’t say anything. Slowly he backs away from me until he spins around and walks off. Like the fool I am, I follow behind him.

“Don’t walk away from me!” I yell in my drunken state.

“Don’t walk away from you? Isn’t that what you’ve been doin’ to me for years?” That’s a low blow, but he’s right.

“That’s not fair!”

“Life isn’t fair, Tianna. Don’t you see that? Life has fucked us both, and there’s nothin’ we can do about it but look forward. I need to know right here, right now. What do you want with me?” Oh God. He can’t do this to me right now.

“You know the answer to that.”

“You want Charlie back. That’s it? That’s all you want?” I can’t do this. That’s not all I want. I want him. I want us. But how? How do I do that now? After everything else?

“Remy, I left you for a reason.”

“And you came back for a reason, Tianna! Jesus, when are you gonna just say it? Huh?”

“Say what?”

“That you fuckin’ love me, Tianna!” he roars. “Say the fuckin’ words!”

“I can’t do that,” I nearly whisper. Remy moves in on me, coming to stand in my face now. We have the attention of half the room, and I can’t seem to care. It’s him. It’s always been him.

“Say the fuckin’ words, Tianna!” He screams at me once more.

“Fine! You want to hear it so goddamn badly? I love you, Remy! I’ve always fucking loved you!”

Chapter 15

Remy

That’s it. That’s all I needed to hear. I’ve waited so long to hear those words. I rush her, grab her around the waist, and lift her in my arms. I toss her over my shoulder and carry her to my room as the guys laugh behind us. Tianna protests the whole way, but I don’t give a shit. I keep going.

Once we’re in my room, I set her on her feet and grab her face in my hands. I lean in quickly and press my lips to hers before she has the chance to say no. I kiss her deeply and roughly. This is different. This is something I’ve never felt before.

I keep kissing her till she pulls away and takes a step back. I cock my head to the side and look at her, not knowing what’s running through her head right now. I take a step toward her, but she takes a step back.

“You gotta tell me what you’re thinkin’, Tianna.”

“I …”

“I can’t read your mind, darlin’. If this isn’t what you want, you need to tell me,” I tell her as she stares at me.

“I don’t know what I want, Remy. This is all happening so fast.” I scrub my hand over my face and take a step away from her. I turn and head for the door, knowing I shouldn’t have done this. I reach for the door handle when she stops me.

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