Page 115 of Zoinks! Nice Pack, Bro

This might be my second favorite picture. Proof that our omega came back to me.

“You seem happier, Sadie sweetheart.” She makes a sound, pulling the blankets over us as she curls up, head on my chest.

“I’ve just been in a fog, going through it. Ant pulled me out of it. I think I needed someone to just stop treating me like I was made of glass. To make me feel like he wasn’t mad at me. That I am still worthy of being his omega.” She is quiet, my hand slipping around her, pulling her close to me so she can relax some more.

My hand caressing her back as we lay there, looking at the stars.

The feel of her in my arms is everything. I never want it to go away.

“I’ve never been in a healthy relationship. And now I feel like I’m in a healthy relationship with four great alphas.” She starts.

I didn’t expect Sadie to open up. I didn’t want to push her toomuch so I just rubbed her back, letting her curl around me as she clung to me.

Just being here with her.

“My ex, Dylan, he’s in jail for hurting me.” She whispers it as I look down at her, watching the way she starts moving her fingers, the stress so clear on her face, “He’d say things to me, things that I sometimes hear still. Especially if someone or something triggers me.”

Like how she was under my desk, clearly triggered.

“Did someone trigger you that night?”

That night.

The night she slit her wrist in my bathtub and I walked in watching the way blood cover too much of the bathroom. The bathroom I had cleaned up so no one had to see it in that state.

I couldn’t ask them to clean it up. Not after Cam had spiraled out. Not after Ant held her bleeding on the way to the hospital. Not how Jace had gone blank.

But I could still see it. Still see Sadie in the water.

Maybe I always would.

Maybe that’s why I still want to give her baths. I want to hold space for her to have positive memories with me there. I want to keep it as our thing so she doesn’t feel like just because something bad happened once it all will be bad.

“Yes.” Her eyes squeeze close and I know she doesn’t want to talk about it, “My therapist said I should tell you guys. She said it will make me feel safer if I just explain what happened but…I don’t want you to be mad at me.

Mad at her?

I have to take a breath. She doesn’t know we saw the video of her under the desk. She doesn’t know we saw the fear on her face as she huddled down into herself. All she knows is that she is upset.

“No one is going to be mad at you. And if you want to tell me and want me to tell the guys for you I will. If you want to tell me and keep it to me, I can do that for you too. I’m just here for you, princess. And all I care about is you being safe and knowing you’re cared for.”

And loved.

Because I love her.

I think we all love her.

Sadie buries her head in my neck taking a breath of my scent before she sits up. Her legs are over my lap as I follow her. Taking a second to wrap her up in a blanket as the stars shine above us.

This was supposed to be a romantic moment but having her open up matters so much more to me. Knowing that she trusts me to tell me about what happened that night makes me feel her love for me.

“At the gym, I’ve been struggling. Weighing myself and worrying because…” she covers her face, unable to look at me and I feel the weight of it in my gut. I need to see her to make sure she’s okay and I’m not seeing her, “I’m the fat girl and you guys are just so damn good looking that when I started losing weight it made me feel so good. Attractive and worth your attention. And I like working out with Ant. I like how it feels but I just get so caught up in it. And I just got caught up so I didn’t see him.” She gulps as I pull her hands away, knowing she's about to chew or suck on her fingers to self soothe.

Stroking my thumb over her hand, I knew we were going to have to talk to her about the way her body changed but I want her to get her full story out first.

Physical looks are so dumb. Sadie is beautiful. She was beautiful with her sassy mouth the first day we met her and she’s beautiful now with the stars shining in her sky.

“Did you know who it was?” She nods her head, blinking at me like she can’t believe she is telling me this, “Do you want me to know who it was?”

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