Page 44 of Sunshine

Babe

I’d almost ignored him the last few days after telling him I was swamped at work.

I picked up the phone.

Sunshine:

Still working on the Cullen thing

:( :( :(

I didn’t want Julian to think I was ignoring him, but I had to get this figured out and I would be a basket case until then.

Julian:

Still?

I thought you decided on a theme thing?

He sent me some bunny gifs.

I sighed out loud.

Sunshine:

Yeah but packaging it, finding the venue, the décor, I need that locked in or she’s going to laugh in my face.

I hitsend and regretted it.

My stomach twisted. I’d barely eaten because my stomach was too upset. I tried to tell myself it wasn’t a big deal, but I had to present to Mrs. Cullen and it wasn’t going to go well.

Julian:

I’m sorry you’re so stressed out about this.

Can I help?

I smiled.

Sunshine:

You’re helping just by listening to me complain

I’ll get it figured out.

He was sweet.I wanted to invite myself over to their house again. We could cook something delicious, talk through my issues, and I’d get out of my own head for a little while. Maybe I’d be able to casually slip in a question about their dating life.

I shoved the urge away. They weren’t my pack. If I really needed someone to bounce ideas off, I could call Holly and tell her I was struggling.

But Holly was in the middle of a massive corporate event, and I didn’t want to distract her with what amounted to me feeling insecure.

I was a big girl. If Mrs. Cullen hated my idea, oh, well. I thought it was amazing, but I couldn’t control how other people saw me.

Even though the thought of her rejecting my idea did feel like death. I was logical enough to know it wasn’t about me, but that didn’t stop the actual feelings.

My phone chimed again, and I picked it up, expecting more puppy gifs from Julian.

It was Talia, and my stomach clenched.

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