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Nicole

I must be out of my goddamn mind. It’s Landon’s fault. He can’t just dick me down so good that all my worries and shame evaporate.

It’s a cock. Not a cure.

What is wrong with me?

Still, I can’t seem to care about anything other than the way they work together to make me feel like I’m the purest form of pleasure on earth.

Kerrington kisses me like I’m better than the air he breathes.

Landon touches me like I’m a drug he’ll never get out of his system.

If I leave…. Will one suffocate and the other collapse?

My heart sinks because I don’t want them to suffer. Ever. The things they confessed earlier roll through me, making me cautious about my next move.

They said they love me.

“Is that really true?” I’m too stupid to stop the words from leaving my dumb mouth.

“Is what true, baby?” Kerrington’s got me tucked into his chest while Landon’s lying on my other side, running idle circles along my thigh. The post orgasmic bliss has all of us rocking lazy house cat energy.

“That you love me.”

Oh my god, why am I being so pathetic? I shouldn’t ask. I should have just stayed quiet and let them touch me.

Kerrington lifts his head, scowling. “Do you think we’d lie about something like that, Nicole?”

And now, of course, my mouth decides not to work.

“We don’t play with feelings,” Landon pipes up. “And we’d never say something that wasn’t true.”

“You don’t even know me,” I finally get out.

“How can you say that?” Kerrington grabs my hand and kisses my knuckles. “You’re strong and smart and sassy as fuck.”

Landon swipes the hair from my face and kisses my forehead. “You’ve been in the spotlight your whole life.”

“You love spicy food.” Kerrington brings my attention back to him. “And you have a terrible habit of acting like you hate people because it’s your coping mechanism.”

Guilty.

Inwardly, I cringe. “You’ve forgotten the most crucial thing.”

“What’s that?” Landon hooks his armaround my middle and nuzzles against me.

“That I’m a callous bitch with no soul.”

Kerrington pinches my chin, a look of disdain clear on his handsome face. “Don’t ever let me catch you calling yourself that again, Nicole. Understand me?”

I swallow around the tightness in my throat. “It’s hard to see myself any other way when that’s all I’m used for.”

Landon lifts onto his elbow and props his head. “You’re a shark in bloody waters. That’s the nature of your business.”

The way he says it almost makes my actions excusable. “I tear apart companies, paying them pennies on the dollar for their life’s work. I basically rip apart their hopes and dreams.”

“You bail them out of bankruptcy and help them save face.” Kerrington huffs as if to argue with him otherwise is futile. “I imagine it’s tough sometimes, but ultimately, you’re not the one who sank their ship. You’re coming in with a lifeboat to help them.”

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