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My parents have too much control over me and my money. I work my ass off for our family’s corporation and it’s taken a toll on me. Hence the ribcage and bags under my eyes.

And the nervous breakdown I had the night before I packed my bags and headed to Mason and Leah’s.

This is my rock bottom.

Who would have thought it came with a collar and short leash?

Andtwo men who have big dicks and even bigger hearts?

It’s unfair to put them in this position. I should have stayed away. And yet… I’ve gaslighted myself into believing that they want me too. Even if it’s just for the week. I’ve managed to fully convince myself that they’re happy to have me in their bed and at their pleasure mercy.

Fucking Hell. What am I doing?

“Nicole?” Kerrington raps softly on the door. “Can I come in?”

“Just a minute!” Shit. I need to clean myself up. “Give me five more minutes.”

“Take all the time you need, baby.”

Baby. Why does it feel so nice when he calls mebaby?

Goddamnit,this is horrible. I tried to escape Hell and ended up in the seventh circle of it with not one, but two handsome devils.

What would Mason do?

That’s been my motto for years. What would Mason do? He’s got life all figured out and has since college. While I was up there visiting him so I could see his best friends again—

because it sure as shit wasn’t to see him, ew—I grew more and more envious of his bold outlook and give-no-fucks lifestyle.

Shit, the man’s got a billion dollars, is marrying the love of his life—who is an extremely successful camgirl, by the way—and has carved a perfect, new path for himself.

I want that too.

He didn’t care about what people thought. Not even after the press had a field day over our prearranged marriage getting called off or that he was dating a camgirl who doubled as his house cleaner. Now he’s helping her solidify a brand-new business that’s sure to take the sex industry by storm. The Brazen Bunny will make them a gazillion dollars because sex sells, and Mason nor Leah have any shame about their lifestyle.

Must be nice.

God, Leah has no clue how lucky she is to have Mason by her side.

What I wouldn’t give for a piece of that kind of devotion and support.

In my world, men rule, and women need tostay quiet unless they’re told otherwise. The fact that my father put me in a power role at his company didn’t help. I have to be double vicious or else. And the night I had with Kerrington and Landon got out and was posted on social media platforms everywhere.

It must have cost my parents a fortune to have it erased.

My relationship with my mother and father was barely functional before, and now it’s beyond resentful. They’re stuck with a daughter who is a disgrace. I’m stuck with a family who I can never live up to. They don’t care that this life is killing me. They don’t care that I’m miserable.

In fact, I heard my mother and her friends talking about how I did something wrong if Mason would rather marry a camgirl instead of me.

It didn’t matter that he and I never wanted it or that we practically hated each other all our lives because we knew we’d be stuck together. It didn’t matter that he was in love with Leah. It didn’t matter that I have feelings. It didn’t matter that my one night with two men was better than a lifetime with anyone else.

My parents just put me to task, sending me all over the globe for their corporation’s benefit.

They let people call me names under their breath.

They’re ashamed of me. All because I wanted to be happy for one motherfucking night.

With trembling hands, I take out the earrings and pause.

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