Page 92 of Wild Desire

I sighed at the memory. "I caved and called Killian yesterday."

They leaned in to hear over the din of the other diners.

"And a woman answered."

Tori reared back in disgust. "What?"

"How could he move on so quickly?" Addison asked in disbelief.

"It was his assistant, Riley. I know it's crazy, but I always worried there was something more there. They spend all this time together."

"You're worried something is going on with his assistant?" Addison asked.

I chewed my lip. "I don't know what to think."

"The difference between you and Riley," Addison said, "is that you liked Killian when you were kids, and he probably felt something too. You have a history. It's completely different."

"Yeah, it wasn't your working relationship that turned into something more; it was your history together," Tori added.

"So you're saying nothing's going on?" I wanted to believe that, but the fear was rearing its ugly head, and it was hard to think rationally about this. That's why I'd called this girls' lunch.

"What did she say?" Tori asked.

"That there was a lot going on and that she'd tell him to call me later."

"That's not so bad," Tori said thoughtfully.

Addison's forehead wrinkled. "Did he call later?"

I shook my head, the pain still fresh. "That's the thing. He didn't."

"That might not mean anything. I mean, it's almost too soon to know." Addison exchanged a look with Tori.

"I hate this. It's why I didn't want to suggest a long-distance relationship. How can we trust each other when he's surrounded by beautiful women?" I pulled up the photos from the afterparty where he was photographed with his agent and a bunch of women surrounding them.

Tori frowned. "He seems to be talking to his agent. Not one of the women."

"I shouldn't be upset because we're not dating. We're not anything."

The girls were quiet for a few seconds, and then Tori said gently, "But you love him."

I nodded miserably. "It sucks."

Tori sighed. "You have to tell him how you feel."

I threw my hands into the air. "How can I do that? I don't know if he feels the same, and he's thousands of miles away."

"You have to find out if he feels the same way you do." Addison chewed her lip.

"I called him already," I said.

"I think you have to try one more time. Text and call. Let him know you need to speak with him," Tori said.

My heart was thumping in my chest as I lifted my phone, and my fingers hovered over the screen. "Are you sure this is the right thing to do?"

Addison nodded. "You can't operate on misinformation and missed conversations."

I sighed. "Fine."

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