Two heartbeats.
Three.
Two bodies, together as one.
Man and wife.
And then she squirms away, and I refuse to let go.
Until she whispers her safeword in my ear.
“Domino.”
FORTY-NINE
MOIRA
He lets me go,but it doesn’t mean he’s done arguing with me.
Not that he cares that he’s ripping my heart out with every word. Or that I was just devastated by making love one last time with my husband.
Just one last fuck, I thought. I’ll still do the right thing and leave. Just one last fuck that will ruin me forever.
Pretend, pretend, let’s play pretend.
Moira’s just a wind-up toy with no heart. She feels nothing.
I’m just feet walking back to the front door with the bag I threw some of my shit in. So what if I can still feel him dripping down my inner thigh?
It doesn’t mean anything.
Nothing means anything.
Fucking him was definitelynotin the plans, but then he was eating me out and we were up against the door, and before I knew it, his cock was inside me, and I was riding him to kingdom come.
“Tell mewhy,” he demands, on my heels.
“Because I don’t do monogamy.”
I yank open the front door. I can tell he wants to slam it shut again, but the safeword was effective. He stayed hands-off the entire time I was throwing whatever I could grab into my bag.
“I told you, I don’t care about that!”
Good. Let him yell. The louder and more public for whoever may be watching, the better.
“Too bad. I do. And I just can’t stay here like this with you anymore!” I start down the stairs of the front steps. My heart’s beating too loud in my ears.
“No!” he shouts. “No. I don’t accept it. I’ll find you and make you change your mind.”
My mouth drops open as I spin back to look at him. “You can’t say no. And that’s calledstalking!”
“So what? I’ve stalked you before. I’ll do it again.” He sprints down the steps until he’s right in my face. “Especially since I don’t believe a word out of your mouth.”
My breath immediately gets short, chest heaving. Damn him. Why is he making this so hard? Just let me break up with you already!
“You want me,” he demands, eyes dark as they search mine. He jams a pointer finger back toward the house. “You just proved in there how much you still want me.”
“That doesn’t mean anything!” I toss my hands up. “Iwantall sorts of guys.”