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Swallowing, I look back to the ground.

“Please tell me none of that was true,” Sienna blubbers.

I can’t respond.

“Zander!” She slaps my arm. “Tell me they were lying!”

But I can’t.

The one thing I never wanted her to know is now out there. And there’s nothing I can do to stop it.

I mean, I could try to explain, I guess.

The story isn’t exactly how it’s been construed just now, but what’s the fucking point?

I’m guilty as hell.

And I hate myself for what happened.

“I fucked up,” I manage, but that barely skims the surface.

“No.” Sienna starts shaking her head and backing away from me, no doubt thinking about those girls she saw me with, then hearing “roofies” and jumping to conclusions.

I want to snatch her back, beg her to forget the past and just move on from here.

I’ll nevereverbe the total shit I was my freshman year.

But she’s not going to let me promise that. I can sense I’ve already lost her as she stumbles back a few more steps, then spins on her heel and takes off running.

My insides buckle, crying out, raging for her to stop and let me explain.

But I can’t.

What fucking right do I have to do that?

I don’t deserve her in the first place.

I don’t deserve Zoey.

My sins will haunt me for the rest of my fucking life.

And that’s exactly what I deserve.

CHAPTER 49

SIENNA

Instead of driving to Mrs. Ward’s place, I delay my pickup by a few more minutes in order to rush back to Football Frat and grab my stuff. I’m an emotional wreck as I race up the stairs and pack a bag for me and Zoey.

The thought of leaving kills me.

But I can’t stay.

I can’t share a bed with Zander tonight.

I mean, what the fuck!

I don’t even know that man.

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