Page 47 of Lustful Nights

“Question number 17. How would you feel about fucking me? Because…I—I want you to f-fuck me,” he breathes out, his body arching into the air, trying to fuck my hand roughly.

My mind goes blank, like a record player that’s scratching. “What?” I ask, my arm stopping as I lean back on his legs.

Jensen blows out a breath, then sits up, grabbing me around the waist and pulling me to him. I squeal loudly, loving that he can maneuver my body so easily. I nestle against him, running my fingers through his hair. “This is something I’ve been thinking about for a while. And I know you haven’t changed your mind about losing your virginity, but if you’re okay with it, I really want to know what it feels like to have you inside me.”

“Oh my god.” I squirm on his lap while his hands settle on my ass. He holds me in place as my mind races. Never did I think Jensen would want me to fuck him. I just always assumed I would be the one being fucked.

“I mean, we don’t have to do that, sweetheart. It was just an idea.”

“No!” I yell, kissing him roughly. “I want to, so bad. Fuck, I can’t even imagine what it would be like to be inside you. But are you sure? This isn’t something you can get back.”

“I’m sure. I also got myself ready for you.”

“You mean you—” my voice trails off as I look down as though I’ll be able to see how clean Jensen’s ass is.

He laughs, placing a kiss on my throat. “Yeah, it’s exactly what you’re thinking. Go get a condom and lube from the dresser. I can’t wait for you to fuck me.” He smacks my ass, the vibrations causing me to moan. “You like it when I do that?” He slaps my butt again, my dick getting rock hard against his stomach.

“There’s something you should know first.” I wait for him to give me a soft smile before I continue. “You know I’m a virgin, but I’ve never done this either. No one I’ve ever been with ever let me get this far. Or I never wanted to go to that extent with them. But with you…I want it all. So, if you’re sure, then I’d really like to stick my dick in you.”

Jensen rolls his eyes playfully, snickering at my words. “I’m sure, and I really love the idea of being your first. In all things, eventually.” I nod my head, knowing waiting for this was worth it. “Now be a good boy and do what you’re told. Fetch the lube and a condom.”

With shaky legs, I get up and walk over to the dresser. Oh my god, I can’t believe I’m about to fuck Jensen. Fuck, what if I suck at this? What if I don’t know what I’m doing and he can tell? I grab the condom and lube but stay still in my spot. I’ve watched a ton of porn, but what if it didn’t fully prepare me for this? Because let’s be honest, what we see in porn isn’t always real. And there’s no way I could do some of the things I’ve seen.

“Hey.” Jensen’s soothing voice cuts through all my downward-spiral thoughts and I turn to face him. “We’ll figure it out together, okay?”

“Okay,” I tell him, gripping the supplies tightly as I make my way back to him. “Together.”

20

JENSEN

My heart beats rapidlyagainst my chest, my nerves picking up. Deciding to give my body to Lennox was a no-brainer. It’s something I’ve wanted for a little while now. But since determining I needed to talk with Nick, there’s been this little voice in the back of my head telling me to prepare for the worst. I would never tell Lennox he has to choose between Nick and me, and if Nick forces him to pick, I won’t let him select me. So I want to give him all of me while I still can. To show him how much I love him, because fuck, I really do.

Lennox walks over to me, his hands shaky slightly. He tosses the supplies onto the bed, before blanketing my body with his. “Since we’re both flying into this blind, can I be honest and say I have no idea what position would be the easiest?”

I snicker, wrapping my arms around his waist. The feeling of him in my embrace is everything. How his fingers play with my nipple rings, or how he ever so slightly rubs his fingertips over my skin, leaving goosebumps in their wake. “Let’s just try to figure out what works best for us.”

“Okay,” he sits up, snatching the bottle of lube off the sheets. “I know we need to work you open first. Do you want to do it or me?”

“You.”

He nods his head, uncapping the lube. After he drizzles some onto his fingers, I pull my legs back, letting him look at everything I have to offer. His dick jerks and a drop of precum oozes from his slit as he stares at my hole.

“It’s so pretty,” he whispers, his thumb coming out to rub circles on my rim. “Are you ready?”

I give him the go-ahead, and tell him I’m ready. He continues rubbing at my pucker, getting it loose before he tries to insert a finger. It’s different at first, not painful, but more so weird. I’ve never stuck anything up there before, so I’m thankful he’s taking his time to open me up slowly. Once he inserts the initial digit, the pressure loosens, and I start feeling how incredible it is. That is, until he moves up to two and the discomfort starts coming back. I close my eyes, trying to regulate my breathing as his fingers find the bundle of nerves within that has me moaning and arching off the bed.

Lennox whimpers, my head whipping in his direction. “I can’t fucking believe we’re doing this right now. I’m inside you, Jensen. Yes, it’s only my fingers at this moment, but in a few minutes, it’ll be my cock, and oh my god, what if I don’t last long? What if I come in like thirty seconds? I really hope I don’t blow my load too early.”

“Sweetheart,” I tell him, trying to get his attention off his rambling. “Focus on what you’re doing. And even if you shoot off in thirty seconds, it’ll be the best half minute. And it’ll give us something to work on, to beat for the next time.”

Lennox giggles, inserting a third finger. “Only you can make me laugh about coming early.”

He quiets down as he concentrates on fingering me again. After a few minutes of working me open, he takes the condom and rolls it down his shaft. My body shakes, but my mind is calm knowing that Lennox is the one who’s going to be fucking me.

“Do you want to do it like this?” he asks, staring down at my position. I’m lying on my back on full display for him.

“I wanna see you,” I admit, my hands coming out to rub against his stomach as he sits in front of me.

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