My feet carried me across the threshold, pausing just past her to wait for her to shut the door. I wasn’t expecting her hand to loop around mine as we walked into the living room that wasbathed in the fading light of the setting sun. It made me acutely aware of how anxious I’d been the instant she touched me, and half of that nervous energy lifted.
I stopped and turned to face her near the couch, and she didn’t shy away from my hand as I cupped her cheek and pushed a strand of hair off her face. “I’ve been worried about you.”
Sunny’s eyes brimmed with tears already, lip worried between her teeth. “I didn’t mean to make anyone worry. I just needed some space.” She blinked the tears back as I gathered myself.
I had prepared everything I wanted to say for days now, but suddenly given the opportunity to talk to her, I found myself not knowing where to start.
“I’m sorry, Sunny. I shouldn’t have kept secrets from you.” The secret she harbored, one I knew about thanks only to Rick’s overbearing nature, played at my thoughts, but it was hers to tell. I’d already made the choice not to be angry with her for keeping it. I had enough to deal with pushing my fears away.
“Carter, I?—”
“No,” I said, pressing my thumb to her lips. “Let me go first.” Her eyes blinked rapidly, forcing more emotion away, and I continued. “Your dad came to see me. He’s really angry about some things, but I understand that. He’s your father. He wants what’s best for you, and so do I. I didn’t tell you about GenOne or the other companies my father left me because I want a normal life.
“I was raised the son of a billionaire, went to private schools, had the best of everything except a parent to love me. My father was distant and cold. I knew that sort of money could corrupt a person. I wanted to be a normal man, with a normal life. I distanced myself from my parents before they even died, and when I learned I was the sole benefactor of all of Dad’spossessions, including his shares of multiple companies, I didn’t know what to do.”
My eyes searched her face hoping for some reassurance that this was sinking in. My desire not to associate myself with my own companies was selfish, but I had a pure heart and good intentions. “I’ve had nothing to do with GenOne or any of their operations until recently, when I learned that there were some corrupt things going on. I stepped in to make things change, but until then, I only took the profits from them to run the free clinics.” The pad of my thumb traced her lip as her gaze darted around my face. “Sunny, I want you to know what happened to Kira is the most horrific thing I could think of. I’m not stopping until I change things.”
Large tears rolled over her cheeks as she closed her eyes, hiding those beautiful hazel irises from me. My hand left hers and rose to cup her other cheek, both thumbs swiping tears away as fast as they would come.
“Carter, I have something to tell you, and I’m scared of what you’ll say. I don’t want you to be angry with me, because I didn’t plan this on purpose, and I know how you feel about this but?—”
I couldn’t resist pressing my lips to hers gently to silence her. Watching her torture herself was painful to me. I had a lot of uncertain emotions, and I’d already made an appointment with my therapist to discuss the terror this topic brought. Still, the last thing I wanted was for her to do this to herself.
When I pulled away, I whispered, “It’s okay. Just say it. I’m here.” Rick deserved to be nailed to the stake for the things he’d done, but Sunny didn’t need more anger in her life. It was her news to divulge, and I planned to let her speak it herself.
She sniffled and reached up to wipe her eyes, but I didn’t release her. Her hands covered mine; her eyes met mine, and she sobbed.
“I’m pregnant. I didn’t mean for it to happen. It was an accident, that day in my room. The female condom shifted, and I was so drunk and?—”
“Hey,” I whispered, smiling at her. It was the most painful thing I had ever done to make myself remain calm and fight the nervous system trigger. Sunny was the most important thing in my life, and ensuring she was okay emotionally would be the priority of my life from now on. “I love you, okay? And it’s okay.”
Sobs shook her entire body. She curled into my chest, tucking her arms between us as I wrapped mine around her and held her close. The idea of being a father again terrified me deeply, but somewhere inside there was a current of hope and joy. I remembered when I found out Hope was coming, how I felt so excited and instantly in love. The idea that she could be taken from me in such a tragic ending never occurred to me then. I wanted that feeling now, so I tapped into the joy of what a new life could bring as I fought the terror of what-ifs.
“You’re not mad?” she asked me. It tore my heart in two that she feared that from me. I’d failed to really communicate my heart to her, and I felt ashamed.
“I’m not mad at all, baby. I’m scared, and you know why, but that’s not the feeling I have right now. Right now, I want to make sure you’re okay. I want to know we’re okay, that we aren’t ending things. I’ve tormented myself so much the past week about this.” Pulling her back by her shoulders, I looked her in the eye. “I love you, Soleil Douglas, and I want a life with you. And if you want children, then I want a thousand of them. Just be patient with me while I handle some things in my mind that are diffic?—”
Sunny’s lips crashed into mine hard. She kissed me through the salty tears, past the anger I knew she felt toward me, with a passion I hadn’t felt in weeks. Her arms strangled my neck, forcing her mouth against mine, and I returned the kiss withequal passion and fervor until I couldn’t breathe and I forced her to back away.
“I love you too, Carter, and I want a future with you. I was just scared.”
“I know. Me too.” I wiped the moisture from her cheeks before grabbing her hand and tugging her with me to the couch. I intended to sit and talk about our future, what we had waiting for us outside the walls of this house, when Rick would breathe fire down our necks and life turned back to reality. But instead of sitting next to me, Sunny straddled me as she wiped tears off her cheeks. Her hips settled down on mine, and her hands pulled my head closer, pressing our mouths together again.
I was powerless to resist her, and why would I even want to? Sunny’s lips nipped at mine, pressing desperately as she ground her hips against mine. The electric desire that had been there since day one roared back to life, and any misgivings I had about Rick finding out or the baby resting in her belly faded into the background as she pushed my shirt up over my abs and raked her nails over my pecs, demanding more contact.
My hands slid down her back and gripped her hips, lifting her so we could be perfectly aligned. A growl rumbled up my throat at the welcome sensation of our bodies coming together again. Sunny moaned through our kisses, fingers tugging at the fly of my jeans until she found what she was looking for. She teased me through the fabric, and I groaned out my approval. There would be time for slow and meaningful later, time to savor every second of reconnecting with her body. This was a desperate, animalistic need we both had been harboring since the afternoon after our tryst in her bedroom.
Pulling away from her mouth, I suckled on her neck, inhaling her scent while my hands moved to tug at the drawstring for her sweats. She had my jeans undone, was pulling my swollen dick out of my boxers. Her fingers wrapped around its girth andstroked while I reluctantly pulled my hand from her sweats and pushed her hips backward. A whimper escaped her lips, but she had to stand to remove the sweats. As she did, I peeled my jeans and boxers down to my knees.
Sunny stood before me in a pair of pink, lace panties, and my eyes ravenously took her in. Her breasts were fuller, her stomach slightly rounder, and I had never seen anything sexier in my life. Her hands returned to helping me the rest of the way out of my pants before stealing my shirt, and she straddled me again, this time with all barriers out of the way.
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SUNNY
My thighs settled down around Carter’s hips as my swollen sex pressed against his hardness. My moisture slicked the space between us, causing my grinding hips to slide along his length. His hands gripped and kneaded my curves while I devoured kiss after kiss.
“Can I have more?” I breathed against his mouth, a question he knew the answer to by the way my hands tipped his head back and pressed our lips together.