Page 48 of Never Want to Love Again

“Oh wow.” I, too, laughed.

We talked for a few more minutes, and Nisha told me how everything worked. She mentioned that when we left, we would go straight to the tour bus to head to the next town and then check into a hotel to rest. The thought of being on a tour bus for days with Crown was causing me anxiety. It wasn’t too late to pull out, but Crown wouldn’t let me even if I tried. I hope he knows what he wants and that he’s not bullshitting me.

Sitting on the stairs near the stage, where I had a good view of Crown, I took pictures with my phone. Asia was beside me, whileShamar wanted a better view of the concert and stood a few feet away. He rapped song after song, and so did Asia from the top of her lungs. I just rapped the songs I knew.

A few people were yelling my name and snapping pictures. They only knew my name from the blogs. Asia just patted my back and told me, “You’re in the limelight now, friend; get used to it.”

Asia, my best friend, was the first person I confided in about my newfound feelings for Crown and how he had just grown on me. Of course, she did her squealing and clapping of her hands. She kept saying she already knew it was going to happen and that she had been praying for it. My friend was ridiculous.

The venue was so packed. This was my first concert in a long time. Crown had stage presence, and the crowd was fucking with him. When he held the mic out toward the crowd, they sang his lyrics for him. He didn’t even have to rap any of his songs at this point. The crowd would do the job.

Crown was shirtless and sweating. He moved around with so much energy, giving the fans a show for real. I couldn’t stop smiling. I could see why they loved Crown the way they did. He gave them their money’s worth. The song ended, and the beat toQueen of My Heartdropped. The crowd screamed. Me and Asia stood getting ready to scream the lyrics out.

“This song means more to me now, now that I’ve found the queen of my heart,” Crown said, causing me to freeze and Asia poking me with her elbow doing that damn squealing. I glanced over at AD and Trae. Trae winked at me, surprising me since he seemed against it. AD had a big grin on his face.

Crown began rapping the lyrics. Those were some nasty words, and I was glad no kids weren’t allowed at his concerts. That’s one thing I also admire about him. He didn’t allow that. Now, what their parents allowed them to listen to at home was their business.

“There goes Jania!” Asia pointed out.

My head swiveled, and it was as if she felt me look at her because her eyes were on me too, and it wasn’t friendly.

“Fuck is that ho’s problem?” Asia asked, removing her jacket. “Does she know I get active behind you?”

“Girl, it’s okay. She’s mad because she wants Crown,” I said. “She’s not worth it, friend.”

“Oh.” Asia fixed her jacket. “She’s a good sangin’ jealous ho. Guess I won’t be playing her shit anymore, either.”

We laughed and didn’t pay Jania any mind. I wasn’t even sure why she flew to Heartville to this concert because her city was also on Crown’s tour list. She dressed with the bottom of her cheeks spilling out of her white distressed shorts. Jania removed her jacket. Asia cupped her mouth in disbelief. Jania wore a shirt with different photos of Crown printed all over it. She began to rap and dance like a damn fool.

My eyes rolled back over to Crown, who was now motioning with a finger so that I could come to him. Asia gave me a little push. Usually, I wouldn’t have entertained Crown, but now that we were on a different level, my feet moved before I knew it. Jania started moving toward Crown, too, which caused his brows to furrow under the bright stage lights.

“Kupid Love. C’mere, girl,” Crown called out in a husky tone. Jania stopped in her tracks.

“Girl, why would you think he was talking to you!” I could hear Asia holler.

Passing by Jania, I could feel her burning a hole in the side of my face. I didn’t even give Jania the satisfaction of looking her way. AD helped me up the stage, and when the arena noticed me and probably who I was, they started screaming and clapping their hands. I think I heard someone shout, “I knew it!” Crown held his hand out, and I put mine in his.

“Aye DJ! Play that shit back!” Crown hollered.

Queen of My Heart began to play again from the beginning. While still holding my hand, Crown sang the nasty lyrics to me. I was guaranteed to let him do everything he sang to me tonight.

After whooping Nisha and AD’s ass in Uno, Crown pulled me away from them. His luxurious tour bus was very spacious. It had a room at the back with a bed. The bus had black and white marble countertops and a shower with the same finish. On the counter near the sink was a small stove and a microwave above it. There were three bunk beds on top of one another on one side. There was a long sofa and a table in the area where we played Uno. Crown had to have had this custom-made. It was so nice.

He pulled me into the room, shut the door, and then locked it. Crown fell onto the bed and pulled me down with him. The bed was even comfortable.

“What city are we going to next?” I questioned as Crown rolled over and began attacking my neck.

“Houston.”

I giggled as his chin hair tickled my neck. Crown pushed my legs apart with his knee. I slapped his arm.

“Nisha, AD, and Trae are not too far away, Crown.” I gasped when his fingers slithered into my shorts, pushing my panties to the side and entering two fingers inside of me. I bit down on my lip and arched my back.

“I just want to please you right now, love.”

Slowly, Crown began to move his fingers. My legs shook when he curved his fingers.

“Crown,” I exhaled shakily.

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