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“And?” I ask, hanging onto his every word.

ZARA

“And I still want you, Chance.” I hate the way my voice trembles. But admitting my feelings is scary. What if Chance doesn’t want me enough to go against his dad’s demands?

Lev comes to my aid. “So this is why I came here tonight, not just because of the storm. Zara wants us both, and I think her first time should be with both of us. I didn’t want it to be with me just because you were out of the running.”

Chance’s blue eyes go from me to Lev. He’s conflicted. That much is clear.

“Is that what you want?” he asks me. “You want me as much as you want Lev?”

I stand up, taking Chance’s hand in mine. “I do.”

He isn’t convinced, but he laces his fingers through mine.

“I don’t know.” He exhales. “What Dad said hasn’t made me want you any less, Zara. But he’s still my dad, and I don’t want to disappoint him. Especially if you’re Lev’s girlfriend. By the way, dude, what the fuck is wrong with you? I know we’re like brothers, but are you really letting your girlfriend sleep with another guy?”

Lev’s confidence is sexy as fuck. As he comes to stand on the other side of me, taking my other hand.

“Not any other guy. Believe me, dude. I wouldn’t do this for anyone other than you or Ares. But I want Zara to be happy, and I want you to be happy too. Zara can still choose in the end if you decide that your feelings for her outweigh Scott’s demands. In the meantime, though? I’m going to show Zara how it is to be my girlfriend. And I want her to have the first time of her dreams.”

Chance still looks hesitant.

“Fuck,” he says, running his free hand through his short blond hair. “Baby, I want you so fucking much, it hurts. But that doesn’t change anything. I still feel like shit about going against Dad’s wishes. He’s done everything for me and my brothers. He deserves to be happy and I don’t want to stand in the way of that.”

“I understand.” I nod. “I want my mom to be happy, too. But their happiness shouldn’t hinge on what kind of relationship you and I have. I understand not wanting to rock the boat unless we’re sure that what we have isn’t just a fleeting attraction. But how are we ever going to figure it out if we don’t explore what’s between us?”

He squeezes my hand, his blue eyes dark and intense. “You’re right, baby. We’ll just have to be discreet in front of our parents, then. And I guess, if you choose Lev, I’ll have to deal with it.”

Lev agrees. “As long as you don’t let what’s between you affect your parents’ marriage, I don’t think they have the right to dictate what you are to each other. But I agree that it’s better to keep up appearances in front of them until you know for sure. After all, I intend to be the one Zara chooses in the end.”

I can see the moment Chance makes up his mind. “Ok. You’re both right. But what about Ares?”

I repeat what I told Lev. “I haven’t spoken to him since the wedding. And we aren’t in the same place I am with the two of you. I’m going to have to figure it out.”

“So tonight,” Chance pulls me into his arms. “You want me to stay?”

“Yes.”

His lips crush mine, and I feel it in every cell of my body.

When Chance’s tongue teases the seam of my lips, I allow him in.

“I missed you so much.” I whisper between kisses.

“Without you, I couldn’t fucking breathe.” He says, nipping at my bottom lip, before sucking it into his mouth to soothe the sting he just caused.

I know what he means. The second he kissed me, my heart clenched in my chest, but in a good way.

Lev’s lips on the back of my neck remind me that Chance and I aren’t alone.

“Fuck. Seeing you two kiss should make me mad, but it’s too hot. I like seeing you together.” He spins me around and slants his mouth over mine. He’s urgent, possessive.

I don’t know how I will ever choose between them. I like them both too much to imagine not being with one of them. I guess that’s a problem for future Zara, though.

“You’re right.” Chance agrees with his best friend, turning me around again. “Watching you two together is too hot to worry about jealousy right now. I was only jealous when you could kiss Zara and I couldn’t.”

I look at both of them. They’re both so tall and athletic.

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