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And she slips out the door.

I make my way back to the living room, flopping on my couch as I filter through everything that happened tonight. That’s when I notice a bit of black fabric on the floor.

Her panties.

She was in such a rush to get out of here that she left them behind.

They’re mine now.

At least I’ll have a physical reminder of the best night I’ve ever had.

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Rory

When I went tovisit Cole after getting back from Vegas, us having sex never even crossed my mind as a possibility.

And yet, it happened.

I had sex with Cole, and it was the best sex of my goddamn life.

I had no idea sex could be like that, so all-consuming. It’s never felt like that before, and I already know it’ll never feel like that again. Not with anyone else.

Cole Pierce’s dick altered my entire state of being.

That’s why, for the past several days, I’ve largely ignored the outside world.

I haven’t left my apartment, choosing instead to wallow at home with pencil to paper as I sketch out my feelings.

Even subconsciously, though, every picture turns into Cole.

He’s tried to reach out, but I haven’t had it in me to respond. What would I even say?

Thanks for the orgasms! I’m so glad we’re still friends.

Fuck being friends.

Ihatebeing friends.

I’ve known for a while that I like him, but now I know just how much. I’m in deep—no one will ever mean to me what Cole does.

And that’s why I’m ignoring him. I have to figure out how to act normal so I don’t rip his clothes off the next time I see him.

The desire to march over to his place right now and do just that is so fucking strong. I know he’d welcome it.

His tone before I left made it clear that he wanted more. He didn’t want me to go. He wants us to explore the feelings between us.

But I can’t let him do that.

Cole is such an incredible shortstop, and he’s only getting better. He has a real shot to make it into the Hall of Fame after he retires. I can’t take that from him.

My phone vibrates, and I look down to see a text from Ella lighting up my screen.

Ella

Is everything okay, babe?

We’ve barely heard from you since we got back

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