I took a deep breath before leaving the room and facing her.

“Is everything all right?”

I shook my head, nodding, as I realized that she was looking at me. Grandma knew me well; she probably realized there was something wrong, but she didn't insist. I also knew that when I felt comfortable, I would tell her.

“I'm going to school.” I kissed her cheek.

“Call Thomas if you feel anything.”

“No problem.” I grinned a little as I picked up my bag and my materials from the living room.

The thought of Thomas at that moment sent a shiver through my body. We were both fine and happy, but I had no idea how he would take the idea of having another child. He'd spent years looking after the twins on his own, and he was still doing it. He'd said it was better to take things slowly when he'd talked about moving in together. It wasn't as if I didn't want to, and I just didn't know what it would be like for my grandmother. After all these years, I didn't want to have to leave her alone.

How could I take it easy with a baby on the way?

I criticized my mother so much for being irresponsible, but there I was. At least I knew who my baby's father was.

I took the subway and went to school. Over the course of the day, I could find a way to tell Thomas and my grandmother about my pregnancy.

I didn't want it to fall like a bomb on my relationship, especially when everything seemed so good.

Chapter forty

I opened the velvet box on my office desk and sent a photo to Deborah. It didn't take long for her to reply.

Deborah:

Nice, but don't you think she deserved a bigger diamond?

Thomas:

Helena is a discreet woman. She doesn't need to go around with a spotlight drawing more attention than her eyes.

Deborah:

But it will be Mrs. Lennox.

Thomas:

She's not you, Deby.

Deborah:

You're right.

Thomas:

I just hope she likes it.

Deborah:

I'm sure she's more concerned about her heart.

Thomas:

I thought I would never love another woman again.

Deborah: