“I’m going to fuck you so hard,” I grunted. My need for her and her pleasure were the only thing on my mind. Her finger circled her clit and I held onto every ounce of control I had not to spill my seed all over her.

“Yes, please.”

I groaned with relief when she grabbed my rigid length and pressed me to her opening. She slowly lowered herself down an inch at a time, her thighs trembling at the exertion.

I mentally counted to one hundred to slow down my arousal. I didn’t want to come too quickly. She would always come first. My fingers strangled the sheets beneath me, stopping me from touching her. Once I did, there was no way I could stop myself from slamming into her until I bottomed out. But today, it was important to me that I retained control. I didn’t want to take that from her.

Her pussy drew me in, stretched to accommodate me, and swallowed me whole. There was nothing better than this feeling besides hearing Jess tell me she loved me. She rose up and crashed back down, each time she’d almost pull out of me completely before allowing herself to envelop me all over again inside of her tight sheath.

“You feel so good inside of me, James,” she moaned.

Her breasts bounced with each rock of her hips. I’d always loved their fullness and how they overflowed in my hands. I cupped them, squeezing her nipples, until she shuddered, shoving herself forward, leaning into my touch.

“I’m all yours, babe.”

Her palms slammed onto my chest and sweat dripped over the curves of our bodies as our rhythms increased. Her eyes popped open and locked with mine, and I knew there was no other place I’d rather be in this world. She gave me a sweet, sexy smile and rotated her hips, causing stars to explode behind my eyes.

“I’m so close, James. So fucking close,” she whispered frantically. Her movements erratic, my hips rose to meet hers. Our thrusts getting harder and faster as we both searched for our release.

She threw back her head. “Oh, fuck, yes, yes, yes. James, fuck me harder.”

I slammed my hips against her until her pussy closed down on my cock like a vise. I thought I was going to lose my fucking mind.

I grunted before releasing a primal bellow as my body stiffened and my orgasm consumed me. She shuddered, collapsing on top of me, both of us gasping, our hearts throbbing together in shared ecstasy. I laid a kiss on her forehead.

“That was fucking amazing, James.”

“You always know how to utterly destroy me, Jess, in the best way possible.” We curled up together on the bed, letting our bodies calm down. I drew lazy circles over her back, feeling her drift off. “How did I get so damn lucky to find you?” I whispered to her.

“Mmm,” she mumbled sleepily.

I’m not even sure she heard me although it’s probably better she didn’t. This woman was already crawling into every crevice of my heart and neither of us had been brave enough to discuss our future.

Soon my eyes drifted shut too. I gathered her close, loving how her leg slid in between mine, and her arm wrapped around my waist, and not for the first time I wondered what our lives would be like if we hadn’t lost the nine years together.

***

IHELD MYSELF STILLas I woke up. Something felt off. Almost immediately, I realized Jess was no longer in bed with me and I could hear her voice talking in hushed tones in the living room. It was eleven o’clock at night and we’d only slept a few hours.

Curious, I slipped out of bed, careful not to make a sound as I made my way to the bedroom door. It was open a tiny bit, which allowed me to hear her conversation; I wondered who she would be talking to this late at night.

“I know. I miss you too. Things going okay with you and Gage?”

Ah, she must have called Lexi back.

“Are you sure? He is pretty hot.”

I expected to be jealous hearing Jess call my friend hot, but I’m not. I trust her. Not wanting her to catch me eavesdropping, I padded into the room and sat on the couch next to her.

She smiled at me and pointed to the phone mouthing,“Lexi.”

I nodded and pulled her into my arms.

“Okay, okay. I’ll drop it. For now.” Jess let out a teasing laugh.

“She stopped by the house?” Jess’s body went rigid. “What did you tell her?”

Without knowing the details I was pretty sure they were talking about Jess’s mom. She’s the only person that would cause Jess such distress.