Page 111 of Foxy Filthy Omega

All of my life choices have been made with other people in mind.

I don’t think I’ve ever made a choice that was truly for me despite how selfish I was. I think the only thing I’ve ever done for myself was push Leo away and even that was because I had to be the alpha the Lopez pack needed.

Maybe I should figure out what I didn’t want first and then start narrowing it down, because honestly, I had no idea how to untangle what I wanted from all my obligations when that sense of duty was what has kept me from being the monster only Leo has ever seen.

He crossed his arms on top of my bed and rested his head on them, watching me without blinking. “Doyouwant me to be an omega?”

I glanced down at him, caught by those pretty red eyes all over again.

That was the problem wasn’t it? Even if there was a way for Leo to become an omega, I wouldn’t be happy because I liked the way he was now. I liked how strong and powerful he was.

Knowing how dangerous he was turned me on in ways I should find extremely concerning, but that was what had drawn me to him the first day we met.

That teenage boy had terrified me and Iwantedto feel that way.

Being afraid of what he might do and knowing onlyIcould stop him gave me a high no drug could ever replicate. I’d felt that way even before I’d settled into a designation, and at the time, I’d been convinced nothing could ever change how I felt.

I sighed and stared down at my hands, picking at my cuticles.

Technically, nothing has changed. I still desperately wanted Leo. The only thing that was really different was my sense of duty.

If I didn’t switch designations around Leo’s pheromones, this might have worked.

“Who’s to say it’ll even matter if you become an omega?” I shook my head. “I don’t want to put you through that and have it not work. We don’t know how I’ll react to you as an omega either. Maybe it has nothing to do with your pheromones and everything to do withyou.”

Dominant omegas were a thing and if anyone was going to end up as one it would be Leo.

“Then I’ll turn the boy into an omega.”

I bit down on the inside of my cheek so I didn’t laugh. He just sounded so damn serious about this I couldn’t help it.

Leo was like no one else in the world.

“The idea of a big, beefy omega is extremely tempting,” I admitted as I studied him out of the corner of my eye. “But his eyes would change. They wouldn’t be as pretty.”

Leo frowned. “That’s true.”

I bit down until I tasted blood. If I smiled right now, he might do something crazy and I was already on edge.

Leo sighed and pushed himself to his feet. “I already called the pack doctor. She should be here in the next hour. Let her look at your ankle.”

Of course he had.

“I can just go to the hospital like a normal person.”

“It’s not safe,” he reminded me. “So, just sit back and relax. I’ll take care of the rats.”

He leaned down, getting in my face. His red eyes flashed in challenge but I didn’t look away or back down. “I’ll tell her to check your pheromone levels too.”

“I’m fine,” I insisted. “You should go do something useful. Like your job.”

Leo leaned in just a tiny bit more. “You don’t want me to stay?”

“No, I don’t.”

He studied me like a bug under glass and it was obvious he didn’t believe me. “To be expected, but I find your choice very disappointing.”

“Sucks to be you I guess.”

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