Page 21 of Wolf

In the midst of my cleaning, Wolf walked into the kitchen. “Morning, can we talk?” he asked.

I ignored him. Was it petty of me? Absolutely. Yet it was my choice of response to his actions yesterday.

“I can see you’re still upset so I’ll talk. My bad about yesterday. I wasn’t sure how to tell you I was going to meet up with the club. My communication could have been better. I also didn’t mean to come back so late without checking in with you,” he expressed.

“Thank you for saying that. If we’re going to do this, we have to communicate openly. Is everything fixed with Abel?” I asked.

“Nah it’s not, and I can’t say anything more than that.”

“You can’t or you won’t? Because those are two different things. Do you not trust me? Or do you not think I can handle knowing business related to that part of your life?” I asked.

He brushed his hand over his face in annoyance. “It’s just that when it comes to club business, I don’t want you to know anything. All you need to know is you’ll always be safe.”

“And what if that isn’t good enough for me? We should be able to confide in each other. Isn’t that what people in relationships do? Confide in their partners?” I insisted.

I looked at Wolf while he blew out a frustrated breath.

“I don’t want to continue being green as you call it. If you don’t think I can take knowing that part of your life then I don’t see how this is going to work,” I said as I exited the kitchen.

I needed a minute to cool off. My entire life Abel had kept things from me. In the past Abel and Wolf both called themselves protecting me. If Wolf and I were going to be together, we should be able to trust each other with anything that was going on in our lives. My annoyance led me out to the guest house. I needed space from Wolf. If I went to my room, he would probably just come up there. My hope was that if I went to the guest house, he would understand that I needed time away from him.

The guest house had a bathroom and a kitchen, so I didn’t need to leave. There were also two bedrooms that were fully furnished. The first bedroom was the room Wolf used as his art studio. I didn’t want to disturb anything there, so I went into the second bedroom. When I was upset, I needed to organize my thoughts. It was important for me to determine the root cause to my feelings so I could find a common ground. I found a notepad and a pen on the desk inside the room. A pros and cons list was the first thing that came to mind.

Pro

Wolf apologized for his actions

This relationship is new for us

Con

He didn’t communicate with me

He and Abel always kept their “business” from me

As I stared at the list, I needed to figure out why I was bothered. I needed to think a little harder because on the surface my issue was Wolf’s lack of communication. When I dug deeper, I thought back to my childhood and the arguments my parents used to have. When I was in the kitchen earlier listening to Wolf speak it reminded me of the times I watched my mother in the same predicament. My father would come home in the wee hours of the morning after being out all night and all day. Abel and I would be having breakfast when he made his way downstairs for breakfast.

My mother was not a confrontational woman and sometimes I wished she was. There were times when I watched on as she interacted with my father, and I wondered why she didn’t stick up for herself. The day my father decided to take both their lives during a murder suicide was the worst day of my life. My mother endured years of abuse at the hands of my father. Their unhealthy relationship always made me leery of getting to attached to any man.

When Wolf told me what his mother said about us not being able to see examples of healthy relationships, my parents’ death was heavy on my mind. Ultimately my fear of repeating my mother’s mistakes caused me to want to run away from Wolf. There was too much at stake if we didn’t work out. I decided I would take a nap and decide on my next move when I woke up.

Hours later, it was dark outside, and I was groggy from my nap. I still felt very unsettled and being in the guest house wasn’t doing what I thought it would. Not being able to go home bothered me. I decided I need to be in my own space, so I headed into the main house to grab my purse. Abel and Wolf said I needed protection but how would any of their enemies know who I was? It was time for me to get back to my life. When I reached my room, I grabbed my purse and headed to the garage. I didn’t see Wolf, which was great. He would probably assume I was still in the guest house if he came to look for me.

When I got to the garage, I settled on driving one of Wolf’s Range Rover’s. I started the car up and plugged my address into the navigation system. The drive was approximately forty five minutes. I waited until I was out of the gate before I turned the radio up a little. It felt like I hadn’t driven a car in forever. The traffic was minimal since it was so late, which was even better for me. I was so excited to sleep in my own bed, I couldn’t wait.

I was so wrapped up in the music and the smooth drive of the car I reached the exit for my building in no time. As I reached my apartment, I realized I had to park in the front in one of the guest spots. Abel had someone bring my car over here the day I left the hospital with Wolf. I found a spot and put the car in park then grabbed my bag and exited the car. While I made my way to the front of building, I noticed two guys standing out front. I didn’t pay them any mind but just as I was about to grab the door to enter the building I was grabbed from behind.

“Get the fuck off of me!” I screamed as loud as I could. I kicked and screamed until the dude that grabbed me put his hand over my mouth. As the reality of being kidnapped started to set in I hyperventilated. My mouth got dry as my eyes continued to water in fear.

“Listen, sweetheart. We can do this the hard way or the easy way. If you are quiet and do what I say, it will be better for both of us. I’m going to move my hand but promise you won’t scream again,” he explained.

I nodded my head in agreement as terror shot through my body. The dude removed his hand like he said he would as I tried not to scream again. As he shoved me inside of a car, he put tape over my mouth and a covering over my face so I couldn’t see anything. My hands were bound by some type of rope so I couldn’t move them. The car started to move as I tried to hear what they were talking about.

“Oz is going to be so happy that we got her. I told you a little patience would do us good,” one of them said.

“Right. It was smart for us to wait for her here while Jay and Rob waited outside the hospital. Let me tell them we got her so they can call it a night,” the second one said.

I was confused about who the hell these people were. Tears fell from my eyes as I tried to keep my composure. I should have stayed with Wolf where it was safe. This was exactly what I got for not listening to him and Abel. Now I was being taken to some unknown place by these strangers. I prayed that God would protect me because I wasn’t sure what was going to happen to me.

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