Page 22 of Only Forever

I pushed my feelings of awkwardness aside, and we fell into a natural, easy conversation. I told myself not to think about what Jason had said, otherwise I would melt into a puddle on the floor. Once I got ahold of myself, the rest of dinner was fun and enjoyable. Being with Jason always made me feel so happy and alive.

We lingered over dinner, not wanting the night to end. We finally left after our second cup of coffee. It was blustery and coldwhen we left the restaurant, but I barely felt it. I felt so warm inside, and I knew it wasn’t from the glass of wine I had with dinner. I felt almost giddy being with Jason. I wished this night would go on forever.

Jason turned up the heat when we got into the car. “Do you mind if we drive around a bit? We could go to Miller’s Pond. Or do you need to get home?”

I was more than happy to spend more time with Jason. Miller’s Pond was a large lake that was popular in the summertime, but in the winter, people would park their cars there to stargaze. Amongst other things.

“No, that sounds nice,” I said. The drive to Miller’s Pond was relatively quiet, but my pulse quickened the closer we got. The scent of his cologne was enough to make me dig my nails into my palms in anticipation. I was pretty sure we weren’t going to Miller’s Pond to look at stars.

There were a few other cars parked at the lake when we got there, and Jason found a spot that was set apart from them. He kept the car on to keep the heat on, but I wasn’t sure I needed it. I was already feeling hot on my own.

I swallowed when he turned to me, his eyes serious and looking darker blue than usual.

“Daphne, I know it’s been years since we’ve seen each other, but my feelings haven’t changed. I still want you.”

My throat went dry at Jason’s admission. What the hell was I supposed to say to that? I wanted him too, but I didn’t think I could make the words come out of my mouth.

“I’m sorry things got so messed up before,” I said instead, regret washing over me again. “It was such a waste.”

Jason shook his head. “Let’s not think about it anymore. We can’t change the past.” He paused, his voice growing low. “Do you feel the same?” He reached out, his hand cupping my jaw.His thumb gently brushed over my bottom lip, sending shivers down my spine. “Do you want me?”

My insides were melting and I lost all ability to speak. I just nodded, afraid squeaks would just come out of my mouth if I tried to answer. But that was all the answer Jason needed. He leaned forward, his lips gently brushing mine. My eyes fluttered closed, letting myself get lost in the sensation. Our lips clung together, and I tilted my head up, surrendering myself to his kiss. Jason groaned, his hand shifting to the base of my head, pulling me closer.

The kiss deepened, his mouth opening and his tongue gaining entry into my mouth. A moan escaped me when his tongue started stroking mine, desire awakening deep inside me. The only time I had felt like this was when Jason had kissed me that one time, years ago. But the sensations now were magnified by a thousand.

“God, you taste good,” Jason rasped against my mouth. “I’ve been waiting for this forever.”

“Jason.” I didn’t recognize my own voice. It was throaty and thick with desire. I wasn’t sure why I was calling his name. I just needed him.

Jason pushed both his hands into my hair in response, holding me captive, his mouth hard on mine. His lip slaked over mine again and again, our tongues tangling together, our breaths wild and hard. I felt like I was drowning and the only thing that could save me was Jason’s mouth.

Jason made a sound of frustration when his hands lowered and slid down my back. He was trying to pull me closer but the console between us was in the way. He tore his mouth from mine, quickly pushing the button to move his seat back as far as possible. Before I knew it, I was being lifted over the console, my coat being pushed off in the process. I was shocked when I was suddenly straddling Jason, his hard bulge pressing intome. Since I had on a skirt, there was only the barrier of my underwear against his rough jeans. I had to fight the impulse to grind myself against him, not wanting to seem wanton.

Jason pulled my face towards him, continuing our wild kiss. I gasped when his hand found his way up my sweater and under my bra, finding my hard nipple and rolling it between his thumb and forefinger. I didn’t have much experience, and a kiss was as far as I had ever gotten. Feeling someone else’s hands on an intimate part of my body was a new experience, but one that was intoxicating.

I cried out in pleasure as Jason continued, his fingers pulling and squeezing my nipple. My head tipped back, breaking off the kiss, because Jason’s manipulations were too much. It felt too good, too intense. My breathing was ragged, and I could see how foggy the windows were getting.

My back was leaning against the steering wheel, arched as pleasure coursed through me. I didn’t think the feeling could get any better until Jason shoved my sweater up and my bra out of the way. All thoughts fled my mind as his warm wet mouth enveloped one taut nipple. I was practically sobbing as Jason rolled his tongue around my nipple, laving it again and again. Wetness pooled between my legs as his teeth gently gripped my aching nipple, tugging. His hands were kneading my breasts as he suckled on my nipples, making sure to give each equal attention.

“Oh, God, Jason,” I moaned, feeling like my body was on fire. “It feels too good.”

“I want more,” he growled. I looked down at him, and his eyes were almost black with desire. He broke away from my breasts, and I could see the red marks of where his fingers had been.

I gasped when his hand slid up between my thighs, his thumb pushing up my slit, over the wet satin of my panties. I grabbed his hand in panic, shaken at how fast everything was going.

Jason’s hands stilled as he closed his eyes, taking a deep breath. When he opened his eyes, he gave me a rueful smile.

“I’m sorry, I’m going too fast. I didn’t mean to push so hard. I kind of lost it there.”

I shook my head. I didn’t want Jason to get the wrong idea. Everything had felt so good.Toogood. I just wanted to make sure we weren’t rushing into anything.

“No, it’s okay. It’s more than okay. I just…” I trailed off, not knowing what to say. Everything with Jason had felt so good. It just seemed to be going at breakneck speed. I had just seen him today for the first time in years, and I was already practically panting for him to be inside of me.

“No, you’re right.” Jason said. He fixed my bra and pulled my sweater down. I suddenly felt bereft when he lifted me up and over the console, back in my seat. I longed for the warmth of his body against mine. “I don’t want our first time to be in a car. It should be special.”

I swallowed hard. Ourfirst time? It sounded like he thought it was a given.But wasn’t it?I was already partly regretting stopping him tonight.

Jason took one of my hands in his, intertwining our fingers. “If you couldn’t tell, I want us to be together.” He suddenly looked unsure of himself, far removed from the man who had just given me so much pleasure. “What about you?”

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