Page 35 of His Middle

At last, Sawyer delved deep, kissed him with a hunger that spoke to Noah’s need to be cherished. This was what he yearned for, to be held with desire and affection. Not treated as if were someone’s plaything to be used when the mood struck.

“Mmm…” Sawyer pulled back just enough so they could look into each other’s eyes. He still framed Noah’s face, gently rubbing his thumbs across Noah’s cheeks. “You taste so sweet. Your lips so full and kissable.” Sawyer leaned in and captured Noah’s bottom lip between his teeth, then tugging the plump flesh before letting go. “Undo your pants, then pull those and your briefs down so they’re right below your ass cheeks.”

Noah’s head was still fill fuzzy from Sawyer’s hypnotizing kiss that it took him a few seconds to register the request.

“Not all the way off? It might make it easier for you.” He gave Sawyer his most practiced innocent smile.

Sawyer gave him a smirk. “What you really mean is that it might make it easier for you to come.”

Noah stuck out his bottom lip. “Maybe.”

“You’re incorrigible.” Sawyer chuckled as he squeezed Noah’s shoulder. “I’m not saying it’ll never happen during a morning spanking, but that’s not what this is all about. Right now I’m giving you my touch, a way for me to be with you all the time, even if we’re not together. I also hope this will be the beginning of you finding a way to become centered as you begin each day.”

“You sound so Zen.”

Sawyer smiled. “I’ve traveled a lot and been fortunate to experience different cultures and beliefs. I truly believe that balance brings harmony. Is that something that seems appealing to you?”

A sudden wave of emotion washed over Noah. Was this what was missing from his life? Why he felt so scattered, like he was sliding down an icy hill with no way to control where he landed? If he gave himself to Sawyer, maybe he wouldn’t only have a caring, sexy Daddy, but one who would go above and beyond the other Daddies he’d been involved with so far.

“I-I… Yeah. Very appealing. Dad was awesome, never failed to show me how much I meant to him, but he wasn’t big on guidance or rules. Not that I ever got to know the one boy he was involved with for a while—mostly because he wasn’t allowed to come over while I was little.”

Noah swallowed down a lump in his throat. “I think I’m the reason he couldn’t have a true long-term relationship. He gave up everything for me and the club, so there was nothing left for him. I’m also pretty sure he let me run wild because of Mom. I think he felt I should getallthe hall passes because of the way she abandoned me.”

Sawyer pulled him close, cradling Noah’s head against his chest. “That’s very insightful, but I’d have to disagree on one point.”

Noah drew his eyebrows together. “Which one?”

“You’re not at fault for your father not having a lasting relationship. His choices were his own, and I know for a fact that you were his world. He loved you so damn much, Noah. He was in awe of you. Your loving, carefree nature, your creativity, your humor. He was so proud of you. Never doubt that for a second.”

Oh God. The tears were fighting him, trying to break down his efforts to hold them at bay. Even if he knew deep down that Sawyer wouldn’t be put off by another round of weeping, he couldn’t seem to stop crying at the drop of a hat.

“I know, sweetheart. I know.”

Sawyer rubbed his back in soft circles again. It was becoming Noah’s new favorite thing.

“I don’t want to cry again.” Noah sniffed. “But thank you for saying that. I’ve worried for a long time that I was nothing but a pain in the ass for my dad.”

“Not even close, baby. He would’ve rather had you in his life than a boy of his own. He never held back on telling me that. I’m sure it’s part of why he made me promise not to go after you.”

“I still don’t get that.” Noah frowned. “I told you how he said I should be with someone like you instead of Garth. I’m wondering if he came to that realization once he saw all the losers I was choosing on my own, that he’d made a mistake by telling you that.”

Sawyer stayed silent as if lost in thought. He continued to rub Noah’s back but when he still hadn’t responded, a pesky twinge of uncertainty filled him. One of his main fears was that Sawyer would decide they couldn’t be together because of that promise to his father.

At last, Sawyer spoke. “You might be right. Perhaps I’ve been so anxious over what your father would think about us being together, that I never considered that he might’ve had second thoughts at some point.”

“See?” Noah smiled up at him. “I have my moments.”

“More than.” Sawyer gave him a quick kiss. “You need to start giving yourself more credit.”

“I’ll try.”

“Good boy.” Sawyer winked. “Now listen to Daddy and get those pants undone.”

Sawyer let Noah go, and Noah hurried to comply with Sawyer’s order. He’d been anticipating this moment for a while, had fantasized about Sawyer spanking his bare ass for years. He wondered if he should pop open a bottle of champagne afterward.

Once he’d lowered his jeans and briefs, a pinch of shyness assailed him. Sawyer had already seen him prancing around the kitchen with balls bouncing and dick swinging. But standing before a fully clothed, seated Sawyer, who was closely inspecting his exposed package as if searching for flaws, made him a tad uncomfortable.

Sawyer lifted his gaze. “You’re beautiful.”

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