Sighing, I turn around and lower myself to her top step.
If someone sees me, I’ll…
I scrub a hand over my face.
If someone sees me, I’ll tell them to fuck off.
Thirty minutes later,my girl appears.
Her hair is wet and twisted in loose braids.
She’s wearing a sweatshirt and soft pajama pants, ready to stay in for the night.
And I feel a pang in my chest because there’s no sign of my flannel anywhere.
The others might not have noticed when she wore it. But I did.
And she’s not wearing it anymore.
I stand as she approaches, taking the few steps down so we’re on even ground.
Courtney is holding a bundle in her arms. Her towel wrapped around her clothes from earlier.
And she looks just like she did last night.
Cautious.
A little nervous.
Alone.
I flex my hands at my sides.
I want to reach for her.
But I don’t know if that’s what she wants.
I don’t know ifI’mwhat she wants.
Chapter 168
Courtney
I slowas I approach my cabin.
And Sterling.
Instantly, my hands feel clammy, and my stomach starts to twist.
I’ve spent all day going over what I want to say to him.
I’ve literally run through a dozen variations of how to start this conversation.
But now that he’s here, standing in front of me, all my words are getting jumbled up in my throat.
Because I don’t want to do this.
I don’t want to end this.