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And I have a boyfriend whom I love. Who I’m almost certain loves me too.

I will not be depressed today.

As I walk into the kitchen, I spot Sterling’s laptop on the counter.

I know we need to have our talk soon. About me working here.

I like working here. But…

I open the laptop, then open the web browser.

If this is going to work long term for us, possibly forever, I need to start looking for a different job.

My hands hover over the keyboard.

I’ve always searched for new jobs out of desperation. If I’m not on a deadline to find something new, I could look for something Iwantto do, not just the first thing available.

And if we stay together… If I officially move in here with Sterling, then I don’t need to look for a job that has room and board included.

A tendril of excitement weaves through my ribs.

The options are endless.

I stare at the blank search bar.

And I keep staring.

And the longer I stare, the more that excitement turns into anxiety.

My throat tightens.

I have no idea what I want to do.

Literally not a fucking clue as to what I should type.

I dig my teeth into my lip.

I… I don’t know what my passion is.

I’ve never had one.

My gaze lowers to the keyboard.

The letters stare back up at me.

I try to think about things I like.

Sterling. Ben. Spike. Baking pies.

Pies are the only thing on that list that I could do anything with. But I’m not trained. I don’t have any experience. And I like making them, occasionally, for fun. But they aren’t my passion.

I lower my hands to my side, leaving the search bar blank.

Chapter 187

Sterling

I walka few more paces deeper into the woods before I take my phone out of my pocket.

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