Page 44 of Fear of Intimacy

He recognized me at the same time I did as a wide smile took over his face.

“Nice to see you again!” he yelled.

“You too!” With a mind of their own, my eyes raked over him. He was wearing a button-up shirt and shorts. His tan face and hair slick with sweat. While he was still very attractive, I couldn’t help but compare him to Trevor. Couldn’t help but see Trevor’s green eyes where Johnno’s brown ones were.

Speaking of Trevor.

I glancedover my shoulder and looked for him, only to pause at what I saw. He was still sitting at the booth but a girl was leaning forward, grinning down at him while her hand was on his arm. I watched with a sinking stomach as he smiled up at her. Smiled.

I didn’t know why but seeing that felt like a blow to the stomach. His smile appeared genuine, and he didn’t seem to be moving away from her. Hurt and irritation washed over me.

Anger and alcohol wasn’t the best combination to have filling my veins as I whirled to face Johnno.

“Dance with me,” I all but demanded. I barely gave him time to nod before I was moving my body against his. If Trevor wanted to flirt with someone, then so could I.

I had no right to be jealous but telling myself that did nothing to help the envy that bloomed in my chest. Trying to shove it aside, I turned around until my back was pressed against Johnno’s chest. His hands landed on my hips, guiding them back against him.

Closing my eyes, I tried to get lost in the moment. I had an attractive guy behind me who was more than happy to be dancing with me. But as soon as I closed my eyes, the person dancing behind me wasn’t Johnno. No, it was Trevor. It washismuscular arms holding me against his chest.Hisbreath on my neck.

I lost myself in the image. My alcohol-induced brain ran with the fake scenario as I moved my hips back into Johnno.

I was so lost in my head, the music pounding through my body, that I didn’t feel the hands on my hips disappear. It wasn’t until warmer breath fanned over my neck that I blinked out of my fantasy. I stiffened as hands wrapped around my waist. My mind took a moment to realize I wasn’t imagining a different set of hands on me.

“Sunshine.” Even though the voice was deeper andhuskier, I would have recognized it anywhere. I relaxed into Trevor’s hold, but my heart raced at the weight of his hands on me.

Trevor moved one of his palms across my stomach, stopping right below my breasts. His hands were so big that just one spanned almost all the way across my torso.

“If you wanted to be touched, all you had to do was ask.”

A moan almost escaped from my mouth. At his words and the tone he used. My eyes fluttered as well as my stomach.Damn.

“What do you think you’re doing, hmm?” With one hand under my breasts and the other on my hip, he gently coaxed my hips to move. I felt ready to faint as my ass pressed into his groin. My skirt had ridden up to where I could feel the fabric of his pants against the back of my thighs. My nipples threatening to poke through the little fabric of my top.

“You should know better than to tease me, Sunshine.” My eyes closed on their own as he whispered in my ear. His breath tickled my neck, making me hyper aware of how close he was

The bratty part of my brain was working just fine as I opened my mouth to respond.

“I wasn’t the one flirting with a random stranger.” My voice came out breathier than I intended.

“So you were jealous.” Trevor’s grip on my hip tightened just slightly. Somehow, his voice got even deeper.

“No.” But we both knew it was a lie.

“If you would have looked you would have seen me turn her away the moment she touched my arm.” My skin heated when his nose grazed the top of my shoulder and skimmed the distance up to my neck. “Jealousy looks good on you, Sunshine.”

God, I loved when he called me that. I may have said I hated it the other day but I lied.

“But know that no one is allowed to touch you when I’m around.” The conviction in his voice was clear as day.

If I wasn’t already a puddle in his arms, I was now. I was near detonation with the way he was gently, but firmly, grinding against me. I'd done more with guys on a dance floor but this with Trevor was by far the sexiest thing I'd ever done. Ever felt.

“Understood?”

“I… Uh…” I couldn’t get the words out. My brain was complete mush.

“I’ll take that as a yes.” He chuckled against my skin.

Yep, I was done for. I was going to explode into a ball of need. I wanted Trevor right then. Wanted him more than I ever wanted anyone else. It took everything in me not to turn around and kiss him. To press myself against him.

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