Page 28 of Fear of Intimacy

As I kept my head on Trevor’s shoulder, I had the sudden urge to tell him everything. To explain what happened that night between us. He deserved to know why I was distant. I kept going back and forth in my head, but I couldn’t deny I felt the happiest I had been in a long time and maybe, just maybe, that was because of him.

10

TREVOR

“Icould eat an entire buffet right now,” Bryton said next to me as the boat headed back to the island. I ignored him and the others, my eyes landing on the blonde siren across from me.

Tasha leaned against Josie’s side, looking adorably tired as she talked about who knew what. Something tugged in my chest as I stared at her. Her blonde hair hung down her back in waves, slightly dry but still wet enough to cling to her skin. Her shoulders and face had a light red hue to them from being out in the sun. She looked downright beautiful. And no one needed to get me started on her slender bare legs draped over Josie’s. Legs that I wanted straddling mine.

Sitting there, I could still sense her on my back. The feel of her slick skin against mine as she held onto me, chest pressed to my body. It had taken everything in me to act normal. Like Tasha Davis hanging onto me was something that happened every day.

I thought back to last night on the beach. It was the first time Tasha and I had been alone like that without any of ourfriends nearby. Oddly enough, it didn't feel weird or awkward between us. We were just two people on a beach.

It was nice learning more about her. Seeing what made her the way she was. Tasha was so closed off at times, never really showing how she felt and rarely talked about herself. At least not when I was around. From what I saw Josie was the only one she was really close with. Knowing she hid so much of herself just made me want to know even more.

“Dude.” My shoulder was shoved, my eyes moving to Bryton next to me. “Could you be more obvious?”

“What?”

“You’re staring at Tasha like some creep.” Bryton remarked.

“I’m not.”

“The fact we’ve said your name five times and you didn’t respond says you are.” Bryton gave me a look.

Shit.

“When are you going to admit you feel something for her?” Wyatt asked.

“I don’t feel anything for her,” I lied right out of my ass.

“Yeah, and I don’t love Josie.” Wyatt shot me a look. “We’re your best friends, Trev. You can’t lie to us.”

“I don’t know what I feel,” I grumbled. That part was true. I liked her. Liked her more than I should, considering that she could barely stand to be around me. But last night and today sparked confusion because she was acting differently. Almost like she enjoyed my company.

I never met a girl that knew how to get under my skin so much. She somehow crawled her way inside of me and didn’t seem to be going anywhere anytime soon. I didn’t think she even knew just what she did to me.

“Don’t know what you feel as in you like her but don’t want to, or you just want to sleep with her?” Bryton asked.

“Josie will have my balls if you sleep with her best friendand make things awkward,” Wyatt said, narrowing his eyes at me.

“I’m not going to sleep with her. I mean, I would like to obviously but…” I trailed off, unsure of what I was saying. Wyatt, Bryton and Landon stared at me, waiting for me to continue. With a sigh, I finally told them about what happened months ago.

“We kissed and everything was going great and she just froze. One second she was into it and the next she was running to her car.” I couldn’t lie and say I wasn’t hurt. If I had done something to hurt her or make her uncomfortable, I would have liked to know before she ran off.

“Well, that explains the awkward tension between you,” Landon commented.

“She has pretty much ignored me ever since.” It may have sounded cocky, but no woman had ever done that. Typically, I couldn’t get them off of me. Take the flight attendant on the way here, for example, who Tasha told to leave me alone.

“She seemed all over you today,” Landon pointed out. She was definitely being more touchy the last few days but that just made everything even more confusing.

My eyes cut back to Tasha, laughing at something Lydia said. I wondered what was going on inside that head. What was the reason behind her ghosting me? Did I do something? The thought of hurting her in any way didn’t sit well with me.

“Maybe you should just ask her,” Landon said with a shrug, as if doing so was easy.

“I’ll ask her as soon as you admit you like Lydia,” I shot back, raising my eyebrow at him. The look he sent me had me smirking. “Thought so.”

“God, between the two of you, I’m lucky I have Mila,” Bryton remarked, looking over at his girlfriend with what could only be described as adoration.

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