Page 65 of Just a Bit Guarded

He wasn’t even sure whether he wanted Will to take him seriously or not. If Will took him seriously for once, that would mean he would leave. The mere idea made his heart pound so fast he felt nearly dizzy with panic every time he thought about it. But rationally, he knew it would be the likely outcome. The smartest outcome. The inevitable outcome. Willwouldleave, sooner or later. Putting it off just delayed the inevitable and made things harder, though it was difficult to imagine.

But if Will didn’t... Gadiel would have to follow through on his threat.

That thought made his heart pound too, though for a different reason.

Could he do it? Would he dare?

The wait was nerve-racking.

He heard Will go out onto the balcony and then return and pace his bedroom for a while, and then nothing.

When midnight rolled around, Gadiel didn’t move. He felt sick with nerves. Had Will left? It was possible he had missed it.

At long last, at half past midnight, Gadiel forced himself to leave his room and check.

There was light coming from the crack under the door.

Gadiel took a deep breath before pushing the door open.

Will was asleep.

He clearly hadn’t intended to fall asleep if the way he was half-dressed was any indication—his shirt was unbuttoned, revealing his muscular torso, and his belt was off, but other than that, he was still mostly dressed.He was stretched out on his back, his phone by his hand.

Slowly, Gadiel walked closer. With any other man, he would have ogled his half-naked physique, but it wasn’t any other man. He stared at Will’s face, unable to look away. It was such a striking face, the five o’clock shadow only accentuating the mouthwatering firmness of Will’s jaw and strong, bold features. Even in his sleep, Will gave off the air of a man you could rely on. Could depend on. Depend on too much. Grow to need too much.

Quietly, Gadiel got into the bed.

Lying down next to the other man, Gadiel turned onto his side and stared at him hungrily. This close, he could see every little imperfection on Will’s face, every little wrinkle and scar. He took them in greedily.He’d never felt so obsessed with anyone’s face before.He wanted to take it apart, examine every little detail, and tape them all back together in his own image before kissing it all over.He wanted to catch the air Will exhaled with his own mouth.

So he laid his head on Will’s pillow, so close that he could actually feel Will’s every breath on his skin. Putting his hand on Will’s chest, over his steady heartbeat,Gadiel pressed his nose against Will’s jaw and inhaled shakily, feeling like a junkie. God, he was so damn pathetic, and he didn’t even care.

“Why didn’t you leave, damn you?” he whispered. “At this rate, I’m never letting you go. You know that, right?”

He felt the heartbeat under his palm speed up. Will was coming awake, even though his eyes were still closed.

“You should have left,” Gadiel said, sucking a hickey beneath Will’s jaw. “You should have left weeks ago. I can’t be normal about you anymore.” He laughed a little. “You know, I never understood cannibalism—it always seemed so gross—but now I kinda do.” He nuzzled Will’s neck and bit it lightly, sucking the flesh into his mouth. “I actually feel likeeatingyou, or maybe I want you to eat me. I sound crazy, don’t I? I feel crazy. Crazed.” Nibbling on Will’s neck, he slung his leg over Will’s body, grinding his erection against his hip. Will’s heart was beating even faster now, but he was still pretending to be asleep.

“Coward,” Gadiel said, leaning down and biting Will’s nipple. He sucked on it, laving it with his tongue until it was hard and wet, moaning around the small nub, before moving his face lower, over the warm, hard muscle of Will’s stomach. The muscles twitched and flexed as Gadiel covered them in kisses and sucks, his hand palming the thick, hard cock in Will’s pants. Will was hard for him. He might be pretending to be asleep, but he was hard as a rock already. Gadiel unzipped Will’s pants and shoved them down Will’s muscular, hairy thighs, along with his dark boxers. His erection bobbed free, nearly smacking Gadiel’s face, dark-red and mouthwatering.

Gadiel stared at it hungrily. More than anything, he wanted to choke on that cock, but.... But no.

“You don’t deserve me sucking your cock,” Gadiel said hoarsely, brushing his thumb against the drop of precome at the tip. He looked back at Will’s face. His eyes were still closed, butthere was tension in his jaw that betrayed that he wasn’t actually asleep. “Dickheads who pretend to be asleep so they don’t have to make hard decisions don’t deserve my mouth.”

Gadiel pulled his shirt off and then shimmied out of his pants and underwear. Straddling Will’s thighs, he leaned down and whispered against Will’s ear, biting the earlobe gently, “You know what my first wet dream about you was about?” He stroked Will’s erection slowly. “I dreamed of forcing you to lick my hole, so that you knew who you belonged to.” The cock in his hand became even harder and Gadiel moaned against Will’s ear. “Shall I do that? I’m not sure you deserve it. But fuck, I want to. I wanna sit on your face—wanted it since I first saw you, even when you were an insufferable dick. Maybebecauseyou were such an insufferable dick.”

He moved up Will’s chest until his bare thighs were cradling Will’s face. Oh god. Will’s stubble felt delicious against his inner thighs. The sight was even more arousing: seeing his erection so close to Will’s face was such a turn-on Gadiel had to grip the base of his cock in order not to come.

“Open your mouth for me,” Gadiel whispered, stroking Will’s firm, full lips with the thumb of his free hand.

Will’s lips moved. “Gadiel.”

His gaze snapped upwards.

Will’s eyes were finally open. For a moment, they seemed almost dark before Gadiel realized that they were all pupil as they roamed over Gadiel’s naked body over him. “This is a bad idea,” he said roughly, hands clutching the bedcovers.

“I don’t care” Gadiel said, nudging his cock against Will’s mouth. “Wanted you between my legs for ages. Suck me.”

Will just looked at him for a moment, his gaze intense and heavy, like a physical touch. Then he opened his mouth andlicked the head of Gadiel’s cock.Gadiel moaned, going cross-eyed with pleasure. “Ah—oh god. Will.”WillWillWill. Grabbing Will’s hair, he ground into his mouth, keening as Will sucked on the head of his cock. It felt so good, but somehow it wasn’t enough. He wanted him closer. He needed him closer, deeper. He wanted himinsidehim. “I want...” Gadiel pulled his cock out of Will’s mouth and shifted higher, kneeling above Will’s mouth and looking down at him uncertainly. Meeting Will’s eyes, he whispered, “Want you back in me.”

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