Page 82 of Bound and Blitzed

Am I ready to grow the fuck up? Am I ready to put in the necessary work?

I close my eyes.

The timing is all wrong. I can’t get into everything that needs to be shared when I’m leaving for the research trip and Avery is preparing for his next game.

I refuse to be even more of a distraction than I’ve already been.

But when I get back from my trip, we’re going to talk and I’m going to prove my love for Avery. I’m going to show up and be a constant for him, the same way he’s been for me. Even when I made him question our marriage, I never questioned his love for me.

Relieved that I finally know what to do, I drift off to sleep.

Early in the morning, two hours before I leave, he checks in.

Avery

Hey, you all set for today?

I smile that he remembers the date—even though part of me knew he would. We’re hardly broken up. Instead, we’re taking a pause. A chance to process and regroup. Somehow, that feels worse because I’m leaving without settling things between us.

Valentina

Yes, all ready. I leave at 8 AM.

Ready for your game tonight?

Avery

Yep. I feel good about it.

Valentina

Good.

Avery

Be careful out there.

Valentina

I will.

Avery

Try to check in when you can.

Valentina

Communication will be tough. Spotty service. But I’ll let you know I’m good.

Avery

That’s all I ask, Lena.

Valentina

How are you? I miss you.

Avery

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