Page 134 of Loving You

“I know you’re awake,” Miles whispers behind me and presses a soft kiss to my shoulder.

I roll over to face him.

I have to tell him.

Miles thinks we have a few more days, but Tobias and Natalie will be here in a couple of hours to drive me to the airport in Wind Valley.

“I am.”

“What should we do today?” he asks, his hand coming to the side of my face as he leans forward. He tries to kiss me, but I turn my head.

I swear to god, it’s like I slapped him.

He leans back, his eyes boring into mine.

He knows what I’m about to say.

“You’re leaving today, aren’t you?”

I nod, and then my tears are uncontrollable.

He huffs and gets out of bed, jerking his sweats on. Then he walks to the closet for a shirt and puts it on, Shadow runs around his feet ready to be let out.

“Do you want breakfast?”

“That’s it?” I ask and wipe the tears off my cheeks. “Do I want breakfast?”

“What do you want me to say, Quinn?”

“I don’t know.”

“Well, neither do it. Which is why I’m going to go downstairs and just … just … fuck.”

He storms out of the room. I hear every heavy step as he retreats down the stairs.

I quickly get out of bed.

I knew he’d be upset, but after last night, I thought maybehe’d be a little happy to have this whole thing behind us so that we can both move on.

I race down the stairs behind him.

“Miles.” I come up behind him. His head is hanging over the counter, his arms out wide as if they are the only thing holding him up.

I wrap my arms around him and kiss the back of his shoulder.

“You can’t do that.”

“Do what?”

“This,” he says and moves away from my touch. “The moment you walk out that door, it’s over. You’re gone. That’s it for us. Touching and … and … whatever else doesn’t make sense anymore.”

He’s right. I’d only done it with instinct. He was hurting, and I wanted to be the one to comfort him even though I am the one who caused the pain.

“I’m going to the shop,” he says quickly and walks out the door.

I want to follow behind him and tell him it’s going to be okay, but I don’t know if that’s the truth.

Shadow runs back into the house and pauses at my feet.

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