Page 26 of Knot that Simple

Maybe more. I remembered a one night stand a long time ago. Alice was young, a toddler? Maybe younger.

It wasn’t very good, so of course I promptly forgot. And at that time, Alice’s dad was still in town, and while he wanted nothing to do with us, he also didn’t want anyone else with me. He chased the guy away, but I wasn’t exactly sad about it.

Tadgh breathed in slowly, checking with the other guys before turning to me again.

“Tell me what you want.”

The three of them turned to me so seriously, I felt my cheeks warm. “Me?” I shook my head. “I don’t want anything. You guys did too much. I?—”

“Gabriela,” Oisin called my name in a way that made my heart stop. “Tell me what you want.”

Surely they weren't asking sexually, right? I looked straight to Lorcan like he had an answer, but he stood there, not moving a muscle except for the tick of his jaw.

“You want to know how this works? Maybe we should start there. Tell us what you want, and we do it,” Tadgh said.

I sucked in a breath, my eyes doubling their size.

“Tadgh let her…” Oisin started, but Tadgh’s hand lifted, his eyes never leaving me.

“There’s no judgment here. You can whisper if you like.”

I was so worried about what they wanted from me, I never asked myself what I wanted from them. I took another sip. The wine burned its way down my throat, and I felt it all the way down in the tips of my fingers. I licked my teeth and urged myself to just be that girl, to just say what I was looking for.

“I want to come,” I blurted out. “I’ve never orgasmed with anyone.”

My skin felt suddenly too tight for my body, and the silence didn't help me feel more comfortable. I wanted to hide, wanted to suck the words back into my mouth, but before I could laugh and pretend it was all a funny joke, Tadgh smiled.

“We can do that.”

The warmth of shame became desire so quickly, it gave me whiplash. My lips parted, and I didn't doubt him for a second. If anyone could make me come, it was them.

“Come here.” He tugged my hand until my body was flush against his, and with practiced fingers, he undid my safety vest.

Lorcan growled but Tadgh chuckled, not looking at his direction. “Just for a minute so she’s comfortable.”

I swallowed the lump in my throat, panicking rising as Tadgh looked me straight in the eyes.

“Breathe, Gabi.”

Yes, of course. I breathed out slowly from my mouth, and right when I was convincing myself to relax, he tugged my hand, pulling me to him until I was on his lap.

I was a midsize woman with a big ass and thick legs, but Tadgh acted like I was just a little doll. He moved me arounduntil my legs were looped outside of his, my back to his front. My heart was hammering so fast, it was only rivelled by how much I was shaking.

“Everything is fine,” Oisin said, appearing by my side and sipping from his wine slowly, as if this happened every day.

Oh God, did this happen every day?

I just met them. I had no right to demand anything, and yet the idea of anyone having their attention twisted my guts in a way I didn't expect.

Instead of voicing my new fear, I focused on Lorcan, his large figure standing right in front of me.

“Stop scaring the girl, Lorcan,” Tadgh said.

“He’s not?—”

I shook my head, but before I could finish, Tadgh sucked my earlobe into his mouth, and the words melted into a sinful moan. Electricity ran down my spine, and I squirmed on his lap, feeling his erection nestled between my cheeks.

Oisin and Lorcan’s eyes on me only made it hotter. I had no idea I was into that type of thing until they were there, watching me with so much intensity.

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