Page 35 of Finding London

“The outfit you were wearing the first time I saw you would work,” Loïc offers with a teasing grin.

I recall the barely there bikini top and short shorts I wore for the car wash. “You’d like that, wouldn’t you?” I shake my head in amusement. “You two had better behave.” I point my index finger between them.

“All is well that ends well,” Paige calls out as I turn to leave.

She’s ridiculous.

After I’ve changed into a pair of jean shorts and a baby tee, I slide on my flip-flops and head back to the living room. Loïc and Paige don’t notice me right away, and I have a few seconds to take in the scene before me. Loïc is laughing at something Paige said while she nods with a big smirk on her face.

She’d better not be telling secrets about me. I’ll get to the bottom of this later.

What I can’t take my eyes off of is Loïc—more specifically, Loïc laughing. That vision is a gift to my sight.

My heart tightens as I watch him. His wide smile, his eyes squinted in laughter, and his broad chest vibrating from the force of it combine into a perfectly constructed masterpiece. He looks so happy. More than that, he seems content within his soul. In this moment, he isn’t thinking about his demons, overanalyzing the second-to-second details of life, or using his rough exterior to compensate for his desire for constant control. He’s simply living.

There are still so many mysteries that surround Loïc. I’m sure I haven’t even scratched the surface of what horrors reside in his memories. Oddly enough, that draws me toward him even more.

I’ve never been the type of person to seek out those in need of emotional support. It’s not that I don’t care about other people, but I’m not comfortable with dealing with others’ issues. Maybe I’m selfish, but that’s just not who I am. I’m here for my close family and friends, sure, but the rest of the world needs to find someone else to be their pillar of strength because I’m not qualified for the job.

Yet, with Loïc, it’s different. All I want is to be there for him. I want him to trust me with his heart, to let me help mend it.

Finally, my presence at the entryway of the room is noticed. Loïc turns his attention to me. His laughter stops, but he still carries a smile. I shake off my deep thoughts revolving around Loïc’s redemption and healing. I can revisit those later. At this point in my relationship with him, getting to date three is my first priority.

“Is she telling you my deepest, darkest secrets?” I question before shooting an accusatory look Paige’s way.

“I guess you’ll never know.” The way he says it sounds like a challenge.

“Oh, I’ll find out.” I send a glare full of mock disgust toward Paige. I point my finger at her. “I know where you live, Paigey Poo. Don’t forget that.”

She laughs, which breaks my charade of anger as well, and I smile back at her.

With laughter in my voice, I add, “Remember where your loyalties lie, my friend.”

She responds with, “You two enjoy all your physical activities tonight.”

“I hate you,” I say, shaking my head.

Loïc grabs my hand and leads us toward the front door.

“Lies! You love me!” Paige shouts from the living room.

“You’re right. I love you,” I call back, my free hand grabbing my purse from the table before we exit the front door.

Loïc chuckles beside me. “Girls are so weird.”

“You’re just realizing this?”

“I suppose not. Maybe that’s part of the reason I don’t date.”

“You’re dating me.” He doesn’t respond, so I continue, “I think a second date qualifies as dating, don’t you?”

He lets out a noncommittal noise, letting me know that he heard me but, at the same time, neither agreeing nor disagreeing with my question. He opens the passenger door and waits for me to jump up into his truck.

After I’ve hopped up, I look over to him. “Why are you dating me, Loïc?”

He shakes his head and gives me a weak smile. “I have no idea,” he says more to himself than anything before he closes my door.

His cavalier statement and the sound of the door shutting make me jump in my seat. I have the feeling that he didn’t mean it as rude or hurtful but more speaking to his confusion about his feelings toward me. But I’d be lying if I said that it didn’t sting.

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