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Wrapping my legs around his waist, I begin to meet him with every thrust, concentrating on what we’re doing instead of all the emotions that swim around us. He slips his hand between us and grazes my clit a few times, and that’s all it takes for my pussy to clench around his cock.

“Ugghh…” I moan as I come around him.

Not long after I fall over the edge, he joins me grunting his release. Rolling off of me, I take a deep breath trying to revel in the afterglow, but I’m not able to enjoy it because all of my feelings of anger come back full force.

Sitting up from my bed, I start to gather all of Shane’s clothes off the floor. His cum is dripping down my legs, but I don’t care. This opened me up to him more than I would have liked. I need him gone.

“You need to go,” I say firmly, shoving his clothes into his hands.

“I thought we could talk, Janae.” I shiver at my name on his lips, but I hold strong.

“No. You lied to me. This was just closure sex,” I tell him.

Shane begins to get dressed, but looks up at me with a look of sadness. “Please, let me explain.”

“I can’t. I’ve been lied to before and I won’t allow it.” I hold firm.

Shane just nods and finishes getting dressed. As he goes to leave, he looks back over at me and mutters before closing the door, “I’m sorry, Janae.”

Chapter sixteen

Shane

Climbing into my truck, I feel like a dog who got kicked. The sex between us was just as explosive as the last time. I knew there was chemistry. But the way she looked at me after, like I was scum…I can’t deal with that.

My head drops against the steering wheel and I know I should’ve listened to Kade. Right then, my phone buzzes in my cup holder, and I can’t help but feel a glimmer of hope that it might be Janae. Every bit of hope is dashed when I see Kade’s number on my screen. I click on the message.

Kade: You’re a dumbass. I told you to stay away from her.

How did he even know I was here? Then I remember that Janae lives with Sam. She must’ve ratted me out. Man, I’m fucking everything up these days, because he’s right. I’m an idiot and I should’ve stayed away. If not for any other reason, then that I feel worse now than I did before.

Me: I needed to see her. But I messed up, man.

I throw my phone back down into the cupholder and start up my truck. Before I can put it in drive, another message from Kade comes through.

Kade: Don’t worry, even though you were stupid, I think we can still pull this off.

I don’t answer him. All I can do is hope that he’s right.

Chapter seventeen

Janae

Two weeks have gone by since the last time I saw Shane, and my life is now just as mundane as it was before. All I do is go to work, go back home and continue my online course for the flower shop. Sometimes I allow myself to get lost in a book, but even my book boyfriends don’t compare to Shane.

He was perfect.Except that he lied to you about his job.I still wonder why he lied, because honestly, I can’t wrap my head around it. But it doesn’t matter. It’s time to move on.

I pour myself a cup of coffee when Sam walks into the kitchen and singsongs, “Good morning.”

“Good morning,” I mumble to her as she stops at the coffee pot next to me.

She stops in her tracks and looks me dead in the eye before saying, “Nope. We’re not doing this anymore. You are coming with me today.”

My brows come together in confusion as Sam begins pouring herself a cup of coffee. We sit in silence but curiosity gets the best of me, so I ask, “Where are we going?”

She sips her coffee. “To Kade’s first game,” she says nonchalantly.

“Uh, what?” I screech.

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