My body lay still as he pushed himself inside me. My heart was racing, and my mind was filled with a million sensations. I could feel the weight of his body on mine, his breath hot against my neck. “I love you,” he grunted, his voice thick with desire. And then he reached around to grasp and knead my left breast. His touch was firm yet gentle, igniting a fire inside me that I couldn’t contain.
As he moved faster and harder, I moaned in pleasure. If only I could reach my clit, I knew I would come again. Desperate toadd to the intensity of the moment, I pressed my hand between my thighs and began to rub in small circles, my fingertips barely able to reach. “Yeah, clench on me,” Evan’s orders were commanding but arousing.
“Is this what you want?” I asked breathlessly as he continued to pump into me.
“Yes…milk me,” he moaned in response, his thrusts becoming more frantic and urgent. With each squeeze of my muscles around him, I could feel him getting closer and closer to release. “Squeeze my dick,” he urged, and I obliged eagerly, wanting nothing more than to give him as much pleasure as he was giving me.
I tightened and relaxed my muscles around him. His grip on my breast tightened and he groaned in my ear. His hips slammed into me even harder. I moaned and tilted my hips backward to meet his thrusts. I was so close. My breathing quickened as my orgasm neared.
“Evan…” I panted. My whole body tingled, my core clenching around him.
“That’s it, Amber. Come for me.” He growled in my ear and then his cock throbbed. His hot load shot into me, and my own orgasm came with shuddering intensity. My whole body convulsed as he continued to fill me up.
He collapsed on me, both of us panting and spent. His cock softened inside me, but he didn’t move. I didn’t want him to either. We lay there, entwined, for a few minutes, catching our breaths.
“That was,” I started to say, but Evan kissed me. His tongue invaded my mouth, tasting of me and him and the lingering scent of roses from the oil.
“Yeah,” he said when he pulled back with a sexy smirk on his face. “It was.”
He rolled off me and pulled me against his chest. It was cold, but my arms were still deep in the sleeves of the robe. The music played softly and before I knew it, I heard Evan’s soft snoring over it. I lay there with him curled around me feeling completely out of place.
That should have elicited deep feelings of intimacy and bonding, but all I felt was guilt and shame. I thought of what Jacob had told me. He believed that Evan could handle the truth, that telling him was the right thing. I wasn’t sure. But after a night like tonight, I didn’t know anymore. Maybe my secret really should come out. Evan was so amazing with the kids, and who was I to stop what fate had set in motion?
I just didn’t know if I was ready for it or not.
16
EVAN
As I parked out front of Jacob and Erin’s home, I noticed the light on in the living room. The sheer curtains obscured the view, but I saw movement as normal. It’d become my habit to stop by after work daily now, giving Jacob updates and getting his thoughts. Erin was usually around too, doting over him and taking care of his needs. Now and then I helped with something she found daunting, but more than anything I found it comforting to know my brother was on the mend.
I knocked but let myself in without waiting for Erin to come to the door. She looked up from her position near the couch where she held a glass of water and a pillow for Jacob who seemed to be getting comfortable.
“Hi Evan, come on in.” Erin’s smile was warm as usual. Today the fine lines around her eyes weren’t as deep, her eyes not quite as tired.
“How’s the champ?” I asked, shutting the door behind me. I stomped my feet off, the light snow from the walk dusting the floor, and took my coat off. The house was warm thanks to a crackling fire in the fireplace across the room. I heard Jacobcomplaining about something, but he kept his voice low and I couldn’t tell what it was.
“Moody, just like always. Come sit with him. I have to put dinner on.” Erin set the water down on the end table next to Jacob and put the pillow next to him. I walked over and sat down in the recliner to his right.
Jacob looked better too, not as tired or worn out. His hair was sticking up at odd angles, making it obvious where it was thinning. He looked his age today instead of the years-younger look he typically exuded, and he scowled at me when I chuckled.
“This must be killing you, being all cooped up and unable to get to work. “I sat back and loosened my tie. These visits were usually punctuated by his grumpy mood and earnest expectation of a faster recovery. He also tended to complain about everything that was changing. Doctors ordered him on new medications and changed his diet completely, which would frustrate even the saintly among us.
“I’ll be back to work next week. You’ll see.” Jacob shoved the pillow behind his back and stretched his stockinged feet out to prop them up on the coffee table. Then he reached for his water and sipped it.
“Next week?” I asked, confused. “Doctor said it could be months, Jake. There really is no rush. I have things under control. You’re not missing out on anything. We can do video calls to loop you in. You should be at home recovering.” Plus, I didn’t want him back. I was enjoying the time working with Amber and getting to know her all over again, this time from a more serious angle. Going back to R&D in Crescent Springs was in the far future, not that soon.
“Yeah, well doctors don’t know everything, and I don’t want to sit around here.”
I didn’t want to upset him, so I sighed and gave up that fight for now. I wasn’t going to be the one to make sure he followeddoctor’s orders anyway. If anyone could manage that it would be Erin. Which made me feel sad. The woman loved him so much and he’d pulled a fast one over on her. How hurt would she be if she knew he had a secret family out there he was caring for? And she was the one here waiting on him hand and foot, caring for him in his distress.
“How’s Amber doing?” Jacob’s question made me tense. I wasn’t expecting him to ask about her directly, though he’d done it on every phone call we had. But here, in front of Erin? Of course, Erin was in the kitchen, but she could walk back into the living room at any second, and how would he explain that conversation to her?
“She’s good…doing fine…” My curiosity was piqued now. I remembered how Erin was the one who sent me with the gift from Jacob to her children on their birthday, how I interrupted that party, how shocked she looked then.
I wondered how much Erin already knew or why she’d tolerate things like that. But then, I wasn’t around for two full years, and when I came back, I made it a point to keep my distance. I’d had my reasons, all of them stupid, but they were there.
Now I wished I’d have taken a keener interest in Jacob’s life, and searched Amber out much sooner.