Page 101 of Healed Hearts

I nod. I think if I’m facing the wall, it’s going to make it harder. And even if I can’t see his face, I’m thinking being able to see his body andknowit’s him, will make me feel more comfortable.With that in mind, I turn around, then awkwardly lift my leg and place my knee beside his head on the mattress.

“You good?” he asks softly.

I feel very exposed, and strange. But not unsafe or triggered. “Yeah.”

“I’m going to touch you now, okay?”

“Yes, please.”

Just like in my fantasies about this, he brings his arms up and loops them under my thighs, pulling me down closer to him. The first tentative touch of his tongue has me gasping. He stops. “Still good?”

It wasn’t a bad feeling at all. “Yeah, still good.”

“Okay, we can stop anytime. All you have to do is tell me.”

“I know.”

He tugs me down a little further and swipes across my hole with his tongue. A moan escapes me because okay, fuck, that’s actually really kind of amazing.

I’m hyperaware of my weight and try to keep myself braced over him, but he’s having none of that. With his grip, he pulls me down until I’m actually sitting on him and all the hesitancy disappears.

I gasp as his tongue moves in a way I didn’t know was possible, lighting up nerves I didn’t even know existed. He moans against my hole; the vibration sending sparks of pleasure through my body. I brace my hands on his chest, watching as his dick jerks, sticky pre-cum stretching from it to his skin. Oh, hereallylikes this.

Fuck, I think I really like this too. I don’t even realize it at first, but before I know it, my cock is aching, and I’m grinding my ass back on Julian’s tongue, trying to get more. “More,” I moan. “Fuck.”

His cock jerks again, a dribble of pre-cum streaming from the tip as he tightens his hold on me. I gasp when he dips his tongue inside, my body shaking. “Oh God. This is so good.”

I didn’t know I could feel like this. I sit up straight and reach down to grip my cock. The second I make contact, it’s like everything intensifies. I groan, stroking myself from base to tip as Julian takes me apart. “I think I’m gonna come. Oh fuck. Holy shit.” I can hear the whiny quality of my voice and if my entire body wasn’t tingling from my toes to the tips of my fucking hair, I think it would be embarrassing. As it is, I want to come more than I want to breathe. “Please, please,please.”

Julian’s tongue delves deeper, his moans becoming more desperate the more I writhe on top of him. His hands slide up my thighs, gripping my hips and pulling me down harder against his face. I’m so close, right on the edge, when Julian’s body goes stiff. For a second, I almost panic, but then he’s groaning, his back arching as his cock pulses and thick streams of cum cover his stomach and chest. “Oh fuck.Fuck, fuck, fuck.” I follow him over the edge, my entire body going numb as I come harder than I ever have in my entire life. I stroke myself through it, my body shaking.

With one last shiver and a drawn-out moan, I lift myself up. He releases his hold on me immediately, and I swing my leg back over his head, flopping down beside him to catch my breath. “Holy fuck, that was…”

He lets out a raspy laugh. “Yeah. That was… indeed. Fuck, darlin’. You had me coming on myself like a damn virgin.”

“Oh, I definitely noticed.” I grin at him, taking in his flushed face. “We can do that again, right?”

“We can definitely do that again. So you were okay with it, then?”

“Yeah, so okay with it. So fucking okay with it. Jesus. Amazing. Perfection. No notes.”

Julian chuckles. “Easy there, darlin’. You may give me a big head.”

I lean over to rest my head against his shoulder. “It’s a risk I’m willing to take. Besides, you’re like so fucking good at that. Youshouldhave a big head about it.”

“I’m glad you enjoyed yourself. I think it’s clear I did. Let me go get cleaned up, and I’ll be back, okay?”

“Yeah, okay. Can you bring me your shirt?”

“Sure thing,” he says with a chuckle as he sits up and climbs from the bed.

Fuck. Yes. I did the big, scary thing. I enjoyed myself. I got off. I didn’t get triggered. This was the best night ever.

Chapter Thirty-Two

Julian

“Hey, Hold. I don’t think this medicine is working.”

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