Intome.
Because he meant it when he said he’s like me. It’s why his darkness spoke to mine from the very beginning. Why his touch electrified me to the core and still does.
It’s beating in the hollow of my heart. Filling up the void slowly but surely.
I’m sitting on his lap now, sucking his face, drinking his blood, not wanting this to end.
Needingthis not to end.
God, I missed him.
And I need him.
And I want to erase fucking Cassandra from him. I don’t care if that seems deranged, but I want her gone. Completely.
His erection nudges against my ass and I rub myself all over him, my own cock straining and shoving the fabric of my pants, gliding against his abs. A strangled noise leaves me when he digs his fingers into my ass through the jeans.
“Mmmff…” I moan in his mouth, biting on his tongue because I still want to hurt him.
Still want to sink my teeth into his skin and cause him pain, make him pay for the hole he dug inside me. Or more like for tearing the stitches he slowly but surely closed the void with.
He rips his lips from mine, and I jerk forward, my mouth chasing his.
Kayden drops his forehead against mine, his harsh breathing mingling with my own. Then he inhales me deeply, as if he wants to engrave my smell into his memory. As if, like me, he built me a shrine in his mind that he visits every day for a hit.
Like a goddamn junkie.
But my shrine has been lacking smell lately, meaning, life, touch…everything.
So when Kayden’s eyes close as he inhales me in reverence, my breath stutters and my chest hurts.
“Fuck, I missed you, baby.” His gruff words are low and charged, and it makes the pain in my chest stronger.
Because he called me baby and said that he missed me, and I think I’ll burst.
My breath is stuttering, and he must feel how much I’m shuddering against him, but I don’t care as I seal my trembling lips to his and kiss him again, slower this time but deeper, digging my fingers into the back of his head, reveling in how loudly his heart beats against my chest.
Almost as erratic as mine.
Almost.
Kayden grabs me by the ass as he stands up, and I wrap my legs around him, not wanting to break the kiss. It must be awkward to hold a tall guy like me this way, but he’s taller and broader, and I like it.
I like how he kisses me while carrying me. As if, like me, he can’t touch me enough.
Press his body into me enough.
He walks down the hall and into a room. Then he throws me on a mattress and he’s on top of me, ripping my clothes away, and I do the same until we’re both naked.
I’m on my back while he kneels in front of me, pulling lube from the drawer.
“Why do you have that here?” I ask, glaring at the lube.
“It’s a habit. I started stocking all my safe houses with lube about a month ago.”
“Wanting to get lucky?”
“With you, yes.”