Page 126 of Kiss the Villain

“Different how?”

“It feels gay, okay? Stop it.”

“So me coming deep inside you isn’t gay, but ‘baby’ is?”

“That’s…a physical reaction. It means nothing.”

He sets his cup down, calm but with tension crowding his shoulders.

“I would’ve found your attempts to find excuses adorable under different circumstances, but you need to stop that line of thinking. Is being gay the end of the world? Do you have something against people like my moms?”

“Of course not. I don’t care what others do. More power to them.”

“Then why is it the end ofyourworld?”

“I don’t know. It feels weird.”

“Weird how?”

I shrug, munching another strawberry. “I’m not used to the idea of being fucked. You’re not the one giving up control, so it might have been easier for you to accept the sudden shift in your sexuality, but…”

His gaze softens slightly. “Being fucked is vulnerable, and you’re still uncomfortable with that.”

I lift a shoulder, avoiding his eyes. “Wouldyouidentify as gay?”

“For security reasons, I wouldn’t do it publicly. But personally? Sure. I still find women attractive, though, so I’m probably bisexual.”

“Women like Jessica?”

He sighs. “Yes, women like Jessica.”

I stand up and grab the knife, but he slams my hand down. “Sit the fuck down, Carson. Enough.”

“I’m going to fucking stab you.”

“I said.Enough. Cut it out and stop with the impulsive actions.” He presses on my hand as his authoritative voice penetrates my skin. “Let go.”

I glare but release the knife, and he removes his hand as I sit back down. I stuff another strawberry in my mouth to keep from exploding.

Because what the fuck? Since when am I this quick to jump to action?

More importantly, why does the mention of someone else turn me murderous?

“Count to ten,” he says in that same austere tone. “Or, better yet, try having a civil conversation instead of stabbing. I will not stand for these types of tantrums again. Got it?”

Something about his tone and the quiet command does something to me. But I tuck that away. “Are you meeting Jessica again?”

“No. We established exclusivity last night, remember? Or is that toogayfor you?”

“But you still findJessicaattractive?”

“Don’t you find other people attractive?”

No.

I pause with the fork near my mouth.

Fuck.

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