“If it means I can have you for the rest of my life, Rory, I’ll make the damn appointment today.”
“Noah, I don’t?—”
“I just need one small thing from you,” he adds, interrupting me.
“What?”I ask, the word barely more than a quiet breath you have to strain to hear.
“Do you love me?”
“I… What?”
“It’s a simple question, Gorgeous.Do you love me?Is it too late?Did I kill whatever you had inside for me?Or…Do…You…Love… Me?”
My mouth goes dry and my heart literally turns over inside of my chest.
“Noah—”
“Yes or no, Rory.That’s all you have to say.”
“It’s complicated,” I start, trying to figure out how to make him understand the fear inside of me.
“It’s not,” he says, getting out of bed.I watch as he walks to the dresser tagging his jeans off the top of it and then stepping into them.“It’s not complicated at all and it just got a fuck of a lot clearer,” he says.
“Noah,” I cry as he walks away, but he doesn’t respond, even though I see his body jerk when I say his name.He doesn’t stop walking and I jump as the door slams loudly behind him.
Chapter51
Diesel
“You think maybewe ought to hold back, Hoss?Get the lay of the land and see what King is doing before we go rushing in?”Crusher questions.
I look around at my men and they’re all staring at me like I’m crazy.Fuck, I am.I lost my head with Rory.I promised I’d go slow and not rush her and then I acted like a fucking Neanderthal.I stomped out of our room without shoes or a shirt and I’m standing in front of my men looking basically the same.There’s no way I’m ready to go back to our room to finish getting dressed though and I need to get shit handled.If Rory doesn’t want to stay with me then I have to make sure she’s safe.The only way I know to do that is to kill the motherfucker and I’m not going to delay in doing that.
“Fuck no, I don’t.I’m taking that motherfucker out and I’m doing it quickly.He bought this war and if any of you have a problem with me delivering it, you need to leave now.”
“If we leave are you still going to storm in like a loose goddamn cannon?”Devil growls.
“Yes,” I tell him.I’m not about to explain that I have to do it so that Rory is safe.I can’t explain that to anyone just yet—even myself.“Is Gunner in place with the men?”I ask.
“Yeah.He got there last night.He’s got five men with him.He’s good.”
“I want to know the minute that fucker gets there.We’ll go in that same night around three a.m.and hopefully catch him with his pants down.”
“I want to go on record, since I am your Sergeant of Arms, that this is fucked up.We need to wait and get some intel so we don’t go in fucking blind,” Fury growls.
“The rest of you feel like that?”I look at my closest brothers and wait for their response, hate burning inside of me like a fucking white-hot flame.I need King to not breathe free air another night.
“I think it would be smarter,” Devil says leaning over the table.“I’ve been where you are and I paid the price for acting without thinking and checking things out.I’ll support your decision Diesel, you know that, but I’d vote for you to use more caution.
“Crusher?”I growl.
“Been where you are, Hoss.Never going to question your decision.I’m with you,” he responds.
“You have twenty-four hours after King gets there before we move in.You get what intel Gunner and Scorpion can get together.”I tell them.“If we can use it, fine.That’s great, but either fucking way we go in,” I tell them compromising a little, but not fucking much.Even giving in this much feels wrong.
“For a man who just got his family back and almost died, you sure are intent on going to war,” Devil mumbles.
“That’s what I think,” Rory announces pushing open the door.