“I love you, Rory.I love you so fucking much,” I growl taking her mouth hard and harsh, my tongue diving into her mouth and claiming all of her I can.It’s a kiss that’s steeped in emotion that I can’t find the words to truly express and Rory is right there with me.
When we break apart, Rory lays her head against mine, and she wraps her hand in mine, fingers intertwining.
“Noah?”
“Yeah, Gorgeous?”
“I…” She stops talking as the door opens and Ryan comes in rubbing his eyes.I reach over and turn the light back on.
“Rory, can I sleep with… Daddy?”
“Hey, Bub.”I grin.I love my boy, but right now I’m wishing he’d waited at least ten more minutes before making an appearance….Maybe twenty.
“You guys having a sleepover?”he mumbles, tiredly.He walks over and Rory bends down helping him up on the bed.He crawls over her and gets in the middle of both of us.
“Something like that,” I say, grinning as I look over at Rory.She’s actually blushing yet again.
So fucking cute.
Ryan burrows under the covers between us and immediately turns on his side.Rory follows suit and her arm wraps around Ryan and just like that they’re in the position that I find them in every morning.It feels good to be here with them for a change.I turn on my side, knowing I can’t lie like that long, the position gets to my hip—but still, for a little bit I want to just look at the two most important people in my life.I’m getting better every day, but I definitely have limitations and right now I hate them even more.I brush Ryan’s hair away from his face and link my hand with Rory’s and we hold my son together.
“Are we watching a movie?”Ryan asks, his voice already full of sleep and his eyes closing.
“Not tonight, buddy.Tonight, we’re just going to sleep,” I tell him.
“Okay, Daddy,” he whispers.“Love you.”
“Love you too, Bub.”
“Love you, Rory,” he adds, his voice so full of sleep that it comes out‘war-wee’.
“Love you, Baby,” Rory whispers back, kissing the top of my boy’s head with a smile so tender my heart aches.
This is it.My dream that has come to life.The things I’ve wanted for longer than I can remember are all right here and they’re mine.
I reach over and turn off the lamp so my family can sleep.Andmaybeso they don’t see the tears of happiness sliding from my eyes.
Some secrets a man needs to keep.
Chapter45
Rory
“Diesel,man.Open up.We’ve got problems.”
I jerk up in bed as the pounding on the door starts.I hear Devil’s voice outside and he doesn’t sound happy.I look over at Ryan and he’s just starting to wake up.My gaze shifts to Noah and he’s awake, but he doesn’t look happy about it.It’s still barely light outside, so I know it has to be early.Noah gets out of bed and I watch as he limps toward the door.I immediately feel guilt.He picked me up again and he hides it as much as he can, but I know he still has issues.
“Damn it, Devil, you’re waking up my family.What’s going on?”
His family.
I probably shouldn’t let those words affect me as much as they do.But, they slither deep inside of me and warm me all the way through.
“Man, I’ve got a problem.It involves that fucker Wolf.I need the club behind it.Torrent’s a fucking mess, it can’t wait,” Devil says.
Ryan pushes into me.His body is trembling and my arm goes around him on instinct—holding him to me.
“Call church.I’ll be there in five,” Noah growls, closing the door.He turns back around to look at us and I can only imagine what he sees.I know that Ryan is panicking and I’m right there with him.