“Feel?”I ask, my voice so quiet that I wonder if he can hear me.I feel unsure and more than a little nervous.
“Yeah, Gorgeous.Tell me.Are the lips of your pussy smooth?Can you feel soft hair on them?Tell me.”
“Sm… smooth.”
“You shave, Rory?”
“Yeah…”
“What else?Tell me more,” he urges and I fight my nerves.
I’m almost afraid to answer.What if I get this wrong?What if I turn him off?
What if by doing this, I lose my shot at trying to fix his brokenness?
Most importantly… What if I’m fooling myself that I even can?
I push away all of my questions.I can only be myself around Noah.He’ll have to decide if he likes that or not.I can’t pretend to be something I’m not.With that in mind, I give in.The bottom line is that I want this.I want more of whatever Noah will give me.I’ll deal with the consequences later.
“I’m… I’m… it’s warm, Noah… heated… and I’m wet.”
“Fuck, Baby,” he moans in my ear and God, that sounds good.“How wet?”
“It’s… it’s covering my fingers,” I whisper and hear him inhale deeply.
“Slide your fingers between the lips of your pussy for me, Rory.Find your clit.Can you do that for me?”
I move so my heels dig into the mattress and spread my legs wider.Then, I do as he asks.I wasn’t lying.I’m so wet, I can feel my juices sliding over my fingers and even painting the insides of my thighs.My vibrator has been my best friend forever, and I don’t think I’ve ever been this wet.I seek out my clit that is throbbing so hard it’s almost painful.I hold my index finger and two others—each pressed against the other—and move them over my clit, slowly.I don’t even try to stop the moan that slowly rolls through me.
“That’s it.Rub that little clit for me and imagine it’s my tongue.I bet you taste so sweet.I can’t wait to get my mouth on you.Do you want me to do that, Rory?Do you want me to eat that sweet pussy?”
“Yes,” I whimper, moving my fingers faster and faster over my clit.
“I’m going to give you that and more, Rory.I’m going to bury myself in you and fuck you so hard that you come with my first thrust inside.”
“God, yes… Noah… I feel so…”
“What, Gorgeous?What do you feel?”
“Empty, Noah.I need you.”
He goes quiet and I’m afraid I revealed too much.My hand starts to slow down and my doubts begin to resurface.
“Rory,” Noah’s deep voice hits me, groaning and full of hunger.It’s so deep that it’s almost as if he’s touching me.“Take your clit in your fingers and twist it for me.”
“Oh, God.”
“That’s it, do it now.”
“I’m so wet, I can’t hold onto… Oh fuck, Noah…” I cry as I do as he asks, squeezing the pulsating button hard and then moving my fingers over it slowly.“I wish it was your tongue instead of my fingers,” I confess, imagining that in my mind.“I wish you were here…”
“Slide your fingers inside that pussy, Rory.Slide them in and out while you keep your thumb against your clit.Can you do that for me?”
“I’d do anything for you,” I confess, too lost in the moment to guard my words.“God, Noah.That feels so good,” I whisper.“But it’s not enough,” I confess, knowing I won’t be able to come like this.
“What do you need, Rory?Tell me what you need, Baby.”
“You,” I moan, unable to stop the words.