“I take it you don’t really grocery shop?Unless of course it’s for condoms and beer,” she adds, still sounding like she wants to laugh again.I watch as she meticulously tears the crust off of her sandwich.For some reason that simple act is appealing to watch.

“That’s pretty much it, yeah,” I answer, not bothering to deny it.“Though it’s starting to look like all I’m going to need is the beer.”That declaration stops her mid-bite.“Haven’t used one since I laid eyes on you.”

“Am I supposed to be flattered?”she asks while licking peanut butter off of her lips.

“Unless you like the fact that you are helping my balls to turn blue, then no.I’m only stating a fact.”

“If you’re waiting for me to put out, your balls are going to be in sad shape, Logan.”

“Some things are worth the pain.”

“You’re insane,” she responds, not looking at me.

“I think that’s already established, babe.I’m sitting here across from a woman I can’t quit thinking about and I haven’t tried to get between her legs once.”

“You haven’t?”

“Trust me: when I try, Torrent, you will know.”

“That sound ominous.”She sighs.“Maybe it would be better if we stopped meeting each other,” she says, not looking at me.

I take a bite of my sandwich as I mull over her words.What she says has merit and she might even be right—but that doesn’t mean I like it, or that I’m going to do it.I have a bad feeling that I couldn’t stop seeing her even if I wanted to.

“Is that what you want, Angel?”She doesn’t respond and still doesn’t look at me.“Is that what you want, Torrent?”I ask her again, putting my fingers under her chin to bring her gaze up so she looks at me.I apply enough pressure that I don’t allow her to look away.Her answer is important.I need to know where her head is.

“It should be,” she answers.

“But it’s not?”I press.

“No… it’s not,” she answers.

“Then you’ll meet me tomorrow?”

“Will I be treated to peanut butter and jelly sandwiches?”

“Nah.I have something better planned for tomorrow.”

“Better than peanut butter and jelly?”

“Definitely.”

“Then how can I say no?”She laughs and I make a vow to myself to make her laugh like that again tomorrow.

Chapter7

Torrent

“I really shouldn’t dothis.If I get discovered…” I’m muttering this to myself, knowing that I’m playing with fire.Sneaking away to picnic with Logan yesterday was crazy.Doing it again today is worse.Most of the sisters are gone again, this time to work on a project with Habitat for Humanity.They left me behind, thinking I’m sick again.I spent the morning wrapped in a million blankets and a heating pad, all so that when Sister Marie came in I’d have a small temperature.

Realistically I was going to hell before I came to the convent.Now, I’m pretty sure I have a table reserved with my name on it.

“You’ll be all right either way,” Logan says, tugging on my hand because I’m falling behind.

I look at our joined hands before I move.That’s another problem.I keep finding myself holding onto Logan’s hand.I am not a touchy-feely type of person.Hell, I’ve never wanted to hold someone’s hand before.Yet, I find myself doing it all the time with Logan.And when did he become Logan in my mind, rather than Devil?I’m losing it completely and if my father finds out, there will be more than hell to pay.

“Easy for you to say, Logan.You have no idea how much is invested in this,” I grumble, letting my annoyance bleed through.The one thing I don’t do is let go of his damn hand.

“Invested in this…” he says, as if he’s puzzling over the words.“You mean in becoming a nun?How do you decide to do that, by the way?Do you just wake up one day and say, hey, today is the day I’m going to give up sex for the rest of my life?”