Page 122 of Hayden's Stalker

I frown, not entirely sure what she’s going to say, as I take a seat next to her. All I can think about is how much I want to be with her, but she doesn’t look at all like she agrees.

Sure enough, she says quietly, “I have to break the contract, Hayden.”

“What? No, you don’t.”

My heart aches because I expected that she was just going to reject the idea of being together again. I didn’t think she was going to say that she needed to leave me entirely.

She sighs and turns to look at me, her beautiful blue eyes full of guilt. “Yes, I do. I should’ve done it the night we kissed. Or any night since then, but I’ve stuck around because…”

My heart flips because I need to know the end of her sentence, and I ask, “Because why, Tati?”

She looks away from me and admits, “Because I care about you. Because I’m the best, and you need me. But I can’t be the best when I’m like this. I can’t be the best when I’m avoiding doing a sweep of your room because I’m worried I’ll see you naked and spend the next two hours horny because of it. You need the best, and I’m not the best with you.”

She stares at the blank TV in front of us as I turn her words over in my head. I’m amused by her admission about how big an effect I have on her. It’s also kind of telling, considering we’ve both been denying ourselves what we want for so long. I can’t help but think that the obvious solution is to stop doing that.

She turns to look at me, and I can’t help but smile at her as I ask, “Seeing me naked would make you horny for two hours, huh?”

Her cheeks turn red, and it’s as sexy as ever as she shakes her head. “That’s not the point.”

“I think it’s kind of the point, though,” I disagree. “You’re right that this thing between us has been distracting. Well, I know that it’s been distracting for me, so I can understand that it would’ve been distracting for you, too. I think about you all the time. I’ve masturbated while thinking about you more times than I can count. Fucking you just now was amazing, even better than my wildest dreams.”

My cock jerks at the memory of it. I want to do it again because I had no idea how good it was, and if I never get to do it again, I would’ve taken more time with her and really enjoyed myself. The idea of her leaving and me getting some othersecurity specialist is devastating, let alone how scary the thought of not having her protection is.

“If we actually did this, surely it would be less distracting? We could fuck when it was safe to do so, and have a completely professional relationship the rest of the time. We wouldn’t even need to tell anyone about us. I don’t want you to break the contract, Tati. I need you, but more importantly, Iwantyou.”

She’s silent after my confession, and I watch her process everything. I love her so much. The most precious thing in the world is the woman who’s here with me, and I don’t want to let her go.

“I don’t want you to die, Hayden,” she whispers, sounding terrified.

I know I should be scared if Tati is scared, but I have so much faith in her. I move closer to her on the sofa so that our legs are touching, and I place my palm on the side of her face.

I stroke her bottom lip while I look into her beautiful eyes as I admit, “I don’t want to die, but I don’t want to live without you, either.”

Tati gasps quietly and stares at me with wide eyes. I can see how conflicted she is. She has a frown on her face, and her jaw is tight as she thinks it through. I know what I want, and I know what she wants, but I just don’t think that our being together will prevent her from keeping me safe.

“Tell me what you’re thinking, Tati.”

I remove my hand from her face but place it on her thigh and softly stroke her there with my thumb instead.

“I’m thinking that leaving you would hurt just as much as you dying,” she admits.

My heart swells at her confession because it means she cares as much about me as I do about her. The thought of her leaving is so incredibly painful, and the idea of never seeing her again feels as bad as if she died.

“So, don’t do it. Make more rules for me. Ones that ensure I’m safe, but allow you to stay with me. I can’t stand the thought of you leaving, either.”

I hope to fucking god that she’ll take me up on my suggestion, and I can barely believe it when she whispers, “Okay.”

I give her a slow smile as I take in the single word. “Okay, you’ll stay with me?” Tati nods her head. “And we can be together?”

She nods again, and my smile turns into a grin. I pull her into my lap and kiss her passionately. She winds her arms around my neck and kisses me back, our tongues dancing together as arousal floods through my body.

I can barely even believe that she’s agreed to this. After months of wanting her and her being out of bounds, it’s strange to get to hold her and kiss her without any kind of resistance.

“God, this is amazing,” I tell her when we come up for air.

“It really is,” Tati agrees.

“So, what are the new rules?”

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