Page 20 of Sebastian's Baby

LEVEL 2 – The Morning After

I spendthe morning berating myself for everything that’s happened over the last five hours. I wonder when Lita’s flight is back to wherever she lives, and I briefly consider contacting Stephanie to ask her. I could go to the airport and…speak to her? Why? Why would I do that? Maybe to remind her to take the morning-after pill again.

I hate that I have to just trust that she’s going to do that. I don’t even have her number, so I can’t call her to check. My morning is sent further down the toilet when Heather sends me a text.

I was told your tongue was hanging out of your head all night last night. I hope you didn’t forget protection! ;)

I wonder if I should tell her what happened this morning. I’m not sure because I’ve always told Heathereverything. Nothing has ever been off-limits with her or the guys, but this…this feels different. I don’t want to hear Gabriel’s I told you so’s or Heather’s thoughts on what she’d see as gossipy drama.

An intense fear grips me as that moment this morning with Lita plays in my head. No. What I need is to speak to a professional. I pick up my phone and dial my doctor.

“Sebastian Fox, to what do I owe this pleasure on a Sunday morning?” Dr. Helmsley asks me cheerfully.

“I need an STD test,” I tell him.

“Okaaaaay.” He drags out the word, and it’s annoying. “Can it wait until after my golf game or, preferably, until tomorrow if you come to my office?”

“Think it’ll make a difference if I’ve got the jack?”

“Uh, no? If that’s an STD, that is.”

I smirk because he hasn’t gotten the reference, but it quickly disappears when I remember my predicament.

“Cool. I’ll see you tomorrow, then.”

I send a message back to Heather.

Of course, I didn’t forget protection. Do you even know me?

It occurs to me that last night when I was with Lita, I was totally present with her. Nobody else crossed my mind at all while we were fucking. I don’t think that’s ever happened before, and I don’t know what to make of it. Memories of being buried deep inside her come to my mind, of her face when she came, of the way she moaned my name, and my cock jerks in my sweatpants.

Dumb, Sebastian.

I shut the memories down because I don’t need them or want them. Everything is tainted by what happened with that condom this morning. By the fact that I was dumb enough to think my personal rule of only ever sleeping with a woman once could be waived just because the woman was hot as fuck.

My phone buzzes, and Heather has replied to my text.

Good boy. Want to have dinner with us tonight?

I don’t think I want to be around Heather right now. My mind is still full of Lita and what happened with her. The last thing I need is Heather noticing and asking awkward questions. I can’t just blow her off, though, so I text back.

I want to get laid tonight. You offering, lover?

This should be enough to get her off my back. She’ll be able to translate that into me going out to a club. It’s a good idea, though. Finding someone to fuck is the best way to forget about the disaster that was my time with Lolita Ciccone.

I dial Hayden’s number, and as soon as the call connects, I tell him, “You’re coming to Club Delirium with me tonight.”

“What if I had plans?” he asks with a laugh.

“Whatever book you’re reading will be there after you’ve helped me find someone to take home with me.”

I can practically see him shaking his head when he replies, “When have you ever needed a wingman?”

“True. I don’t need you, Hayden Vega. I want you. You wouldn’t make me go out all alone, would you? You’re the last of my single friends. Going out to pick up isn’t as fun with Gabriel now that he’s engaged.”

My phone buzzes, and I pull it away from my ear to see that a message from Heather has come through, but I put the phone back to my ear in time to hear Hayden say, “You’re just not satisfied unless you can feel like you’ve beaten someone at something. I’m happy with what I have with Ally, so I’m not going to be picking anyone up.”

I roll my eyes because Ally has made it blatantly obvious that she isn’t interested in any serious relationship. Yet Hayden is holding off on getting sex from anyone else anyway. Telling him that will probably piss him off, though, so I’d better not.

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