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She’s quiet for a while, and I’m still smiling until I hear her sigh before she asks, “Why do I keep doing this, Seb?”

I hate the guilt that I can hear in her voice. The reminder that she’s put this rule in place because she doesn’t love me. I’m not getting sex anywhere else, but she doesn’t know that. I live for the moments I get with her, and she brightens my world.

I can’t tell her any of that because she’ll just reject me again, so I answer her question. “Because I want you to, princess. I’m a big boy; let me worry about myself. Don’t resist if the only reason you’re doing it is because you think that you’re protecting me.”

“I’m just trying to do the right thing,” she says quietly.

“And that’s not me?”

I ask the question even though I know that I won’t like the answer.

“It’s not you, Seb. It’s us. We need to put our baby first. I love you—”

“But,” I say it before she can as a stab of pain hits my heart.

“But it’s not like that, and I don’t want to lead you on.”

I snort. “Trust me when I tell you that you’ve beenveryclear on this matter, princess. Crystal, even. Message received. It doesn’t mean that I don’t want to fuck you stupid when I come over to Seattle next week.”

“But it’s not fair to you for me to fuck you when I’m not in love with you.”

“How about you let me decide what I think is fair for you to do? Personally, I think it’s fair for you to wrap your lips around my cock and blow me. I think it’s fair for you to spread your legs wide and let me eat your pussy. I think it’s absolutely themostfair thing for you to let me fuck you until I bury myself deep and come inside you.”

She doesn’t say anything in response, and I laugh.

“It’s late, princess. I look forward to you being very fair to me in the future.”

26

LEVEL 20.4 – Boy or Girl?

I’m excitedas I enter the code for the elevator to the penthouse apartment in Seattle. I get to see Lita and the baby today.

I smile when I see her sitting at her tiny dining table eating a slice of toast. “Hey there, princess. Nice place you’ve got yourself.”

“Thanks, landlord. You here to collect your rent?” Lita grins at me.

“I sure am. Are you having trouble paying? I’m sure we could work out some other arrangement if we need to.” I wink at her.

“I’ve seen this porno,” Lita laughs.

“Really? What happened at the end of it?”

“Has anyone ever actually seen the end of a porn movie?” Lita jokes.

I burst into laughter and tell her, “God, I’ve missed you, princess.”

I walk over to her and kiss her cheek before sitting down at the table with her.

“Sebastian,” Lita says in a warning tone.

“Yes, princess?” I ask with a faux innocent smile at her.

“No sex, Seb.” Lita shakes her head.

She’s refused to have phone sex again since that night. I called her every night for a few days to try and convince her, but she stood firm, and I’ve been out at clubs drowning my sorrows with Hayden every night since. Unfortunately, that’s meant hanging out with Blake on at least three occasions, but he’s a little more palatable when I’m drunk.

“How many times do I have to tell you I don’t agree to that ground rule?” I ask Lita.

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