Page 27 of Roping Reba

“If you want to leave so badly then why haven’t you moved into the guest house?”

“You know it’s empty?”

“Reba, I’m the foreman. I know everything that happens here.”

“I can leave in the morning if that’s what you want.”

“It’s not! Dammit, Reba, you’re so frustrating.”

I couldn’t help but laugh. Watching Johnny lose his patience had always been one of my favorite things. It was rare when he got worked up, but I could certainly do it with ease.

“Then tell me what you want.”

“Honestly, I want to tie your ass to my bed and tease the fuck out of you until you are begging me for release. I want to wake up in the morning with you in my arms, and I want everything I did wrong over the years to go away.”

“Well, that won’t happen.”

“Which part?”

“You can’t change the past.”

“Maybe not, but I can explain things better. Reba, you meant the world to me, and when Trina left, I took advantage of you. I wanted something between us to happen for years, but I let my guilt and my need for you to help me with my son keep that from happening. I was convinced if I asked you out you’d just think I was looking for a mom for Jax so I never did it. Then one night you finally looked at me the way I had prayed you would and I made my move. Sloppy drunk? Yeah. But I had you and for the first time, everything felt right. When we woke up the next morning, I was swimming in liquor, my head was pounding and you were lying in my arms. Relief and sadness took over because I knew you would run on me. You weren’t ready to be a mom, fuck I wasn’t ready to be a dad but I was and I didn’t want to tie you down. When you got up and I saw the blood, I realized what had happened. Knowing I took something so precious from you nearly killed me. I thought for sure I’d lose you and I did.”

“You didn’t take anything from me, Johnny, I gave something to you and you threw it in my face. You had no right to decide what I was ready for. I loved that kid more than anything. Losing you as a friend was hard, sure, but not seeing Jax for a year after that was worse. I stayed in touch with your mom just so I could hear how he was doing. I adored him and back then I adored you, but it all went to shit. I’d rather stay friends and keep him in my life than have to do all that again.”

“I won’t let us mess it up. You are the one for me, Reba, I know you are.”

“You haven’t even asked if I want this? If I want you.”

“Because I know you do. If I hadn’t fucked up, our lives would be different. You’d already be here with me and Jax. You’d be my wife and by my side for every milestone he hit. We would be the family we were always meant to be. I can’t let you go again.”

He stood and reached for my hands, pulling me into his arms. I wish I could blame it on the few sips of wine I’d had, but I couldn’t. His words broke through something deep inside me, so when he pulled my arms up over his shoulders and lowered his lips to mine, I let him kiss me without a fight. When I pressed myself against him and felt his hard cock between us, I couldn’t help but let out a little moan, and when he lifted me off my feet and carried me to his bed I didn’t push him away as he covered my body with his.

“Tell me you want this, Reba. Please.”

Fuck, I wanted this but to admit it seemed so hard. I looked up at the man who held a place in my heart. No matter how far I ran, he was always there and yet still I was so worried everything would go wrong.

“I’m scared.”

“I know you are. I know I never gave you a chance to feel safe with me, but I’ll do everything I can to prove to you that you are.”

I nodded, and he wiped a tear from my face that I didn’t even know was there. Leaning over, he kissed me again, softly this time and it broke me.

“I want this, Johnny, I want you and Jax and everything that comes along with it. Just don’t make me regret it.”

His smile was so big it made me laugh.

“Mine,” he said as he lowered his head and placed his lips on my neck. Kissing and sucking at that tender flesh that always made me weak. I closed my eyes and gave in to the sensations all around me. The soft feel of the comforter beneath me. Thestrength and weight of the man above me, the smell of his cologne and the taste of his lips sent me to a place that I desired more than anything else.

He moved slowly, undressing me carefully and taking me in. I was certainly thicker than I’d been when I was younger, and he seemed damn pleased with my curves. His fingers ran over my skin followed by feather-like kisses that felt amazing. I wasn’t a virgin anymore. I’d given that to him and moved on with my life. But never had I felt so cherished as I did in that moment.

Johnny pulled away and stood to undress. Watching him from where I was in his bed was so reminiscent of our past it felt as if fate had given us a do over, a way to make things right again and that’s what we did.

He pulled out condoms, a bottle of lube, and rope. Which made me laugh.

“What’s that for?”

“Just in case you try to run on me again. Now, come here, my Crazy Rider.”

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