Page 44 of My Mistake To Make

‘I’m the best sex I ever had,’ Missy says, and everyone laughs at the smug expression on her face. ‘I’m serious, the only benefit of a human dick is that it’s warm and doesn’t need to be charged. Aside from that, nobody rocks my world like I do.’

She raises her glass and takes a large gulp of wine and I feel the heat of embarrassment creep up my cheeks.

‘I can’t remember the last time I hadreallygood sex.’ Zoe looks off into the distance like she’s trying to remember when Bree holds up a finger to her twin.

‘Yes, you do.’ She smirks knowingly.

‘Bree.’ Zoe glares at her twin in warning, but Bree has had a couple of glasses too many and doesn’t heed it.

‘Zoe fucked Doug’s best friend,’ Bree explains, grinning mischievously. ‘He doesn’t know they hooked up.’

‘And he can’t, so what happens on girls’ night damn well stays there,’ Zoe hisses. ‘Breanne, I swear, you need to learn to keep a secret.’

‘Okay, you’re up, new girl.’ Still smiling, Bree turns her attention to me. ‘Best lay ever, go.’

I shrug my shoulders. ‘Oh, I um, I don’t…’

‘Wait,’ Zoe leans in and meets my gaze. ‘Are you a virgin?’

‘No,’ I protest, ‘I’m not a virgin. I was with my boyfriend for five years. Do you really think that would have lasted if he wasn’t getting sex?’

‘Then what was that look?’

I take, then blow out a deep breath. I’ve never had friends to discuss this stuff with. Maybe it would have made sense sooner if I had. Now I do.

‘Okay, so—’ I take a sip of my wine. ‘I’ve never really enjoyed sex, like, at all.’ I feel their eyes all trained on me, waiting for me to explain that further. ‘I’ve never had an orgasm.’

Well, it’s out there now.

‘Excuse me?’ Zoe almost spits her drink as her sister questions.

‘Never?’ Missy asks, and I shake my head.

‘Never.’

‘Not in five years with your ex?’ Zoe’s voice is higher and faster than I’ve ever heard as she struggles to make sense of my situation.

I shake my head. ‘Or before him.’

‘And since?’ Missy pushes softly.

‘Well, there hasn’t been anyone since.’

‘There’s been you. You don’t even come when you’re alone?’ Bree asks.

‘Oh, no, I,’ Oh god. ‘Well, I don’t, I mean. I’ve never…’

‘You don’t masturbate?’ Missy looks horrified at the revelation, and I shake my head, no.

‘But, how?’ Zoe, still horrified, questions.

‘Well, I…’

‘Cara,’ Bree says my name seriously, and I turn to look at her. ‘You’ve never had a single orgasm your whole life?’ I shake my head, no, once more, and they all simultaneously sip from their glasses.

‘See, the thing is, I thought arousal wasn’t a real thing, or at least I wasn’t capable of being aroused. I never really got all hot and bothered during sex and…’

‘Foreplay?’ Missy asks.

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