I try not to think about that.
Fifteen minutes and forty seconds later, I meet Dino, and we head back to the little tent.
Inside, I collapse onto the bed. “Dios. That’s magical,” I sigh.
It feels so good to be clean.
I prop myself up on my elbows, blinking at Dino, who is glowering in the corner.
The clothing they provided for us is basically a prison uniform. Tan pants, tan shirt, somewhere between scrubs and a canvas sack.
But Dino makes it look… sexy.
“There’s room for two,” I say, patting on the bed next to me.
Dino eyes the wooden supports, made from wooden crates, suspiciously.
I stand. “Or, we could just put it on the floor.”
Silently, Dino moves the bed off of the crates, the flimsy cot-like mattress so thin, I can feel the floor through it.
I wrinkle my nose. “I’m not sure that’s better…”
Dino plops down next to me and pulls me close.
It’s better.
I inhale deeply, my nose in his chest. He smells good. Clean, like the sanitizing soap, but also…
Like Dino.
I huff again, trying to get closer, wiggling my hips against his.
Dino rumbles. “Marisol…”
“Yes?”
“Stop.”
I freeze. “Why?”
He takes a minute to respond. “Because you… this isn’t the time.”
“For what?”
I know I’m playing innocent, even though I understand what he’s saying now. I can’t help it, though.
After all that?
I want a reminder that I’m alive. That I made it out of the mud.
And that I’m heading home, to my girls.
I wiggle closer again, my lips just brushing his chest.
“Marisol,” he grunts. His fingers pull my chin up, until I’m meeting his eyes. “Stop.”
“No,” I whisper, defiant.