Page 57 of Sunshine & Sinful

“She’s gonna be pissed at me.”

Smirking, Sunshine rolls his eyes as if I’m being dramatic. “No. She’s just happy we’ve made up.”

“Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.” Now I’m the one rolling my eyes. “Fuckin’ Till and her romantics. She’s always been on your side.” Which is another reason I thought they were an item.

“Rightfully, so. ’Cause I’ve always been on your side. We’re allies.”

“Allies,” I repeat. “And here I thought something was going on between you two at one point.”

Rearing back at the news, Sunshine snorts like that’s the dumbest shit he’s ever heard. “Sweets, I’ve never touched Till.”

“I know that now.” Now that she told me.

“I’ve only had eyes for you. I haven’t even gotten my dick sucked in eight… nine years. Somethin’ like that.” The man shrugs as if that’s no skin off his back, but that’s a long damn time. A long, long, long damn time in the biker world.

“That’s insane,” I admit, hoping I don’t offend him. “Is it because of me or because of…” I gesture to his crotch, not wanting to cross any lines. It’s clear he stays erect for as long as he’s needed, but orgasms are hard to come by. No pun intended. I don’t want to insult him by talking about his dysfunction. It doesn’t bother me. It would never sway me from caring about him or us being together if that’s what we decide. I need him to understand that. Because whether he comes or not doesn’t change my feelings. It just makes me wanna try harder. To go longer. To give him more. Evidenced by last night’s bathroom fuck and my subsequent vag state.

Lifting my legs to make room to sit, Sunshine drapes them over his lap and draws circles across my knees. “You wanna talk about this?”

I nod. “Yes. If that’s okay.” Since we’re doing this, whateverthisis, it’s something we should probably discuss. Sex is a big part of any relationship. Ignoring the elephant in the room doesn’t make the elephant disappear.

Sunshine squeezes my big toe. “I’ll talk to you about anythin’, Sweets. You know that.”

“Eh. Sorta. I mean, you did leave out that your son was married to another woman and had been cheating on me for years.” I arch a brow and wait for him to defend himself.

The man blows out a breath, and his shoulders hunch forward. “Okay. That’s fair. I’m sorry. That won’t happen again.”

I nudge his leg with my foot. “It better not.” This is Sunshine’s single pass. One and done. If he lies to me again, there is no coming back from it. I’m not willing to forgive what he did, but I’m willing to look past it. We all make choices to protect ourselves and our family. I get it, even though I may not like it, and I may disagree. But he’s always had my back in his own way. Having to choose between me and Dark is a slippery slope I wouldn’t wish upon anybody. It'd be hard to do that for one of my boys or Lily.

“It won’t,” Sunshine vows and crosses a finger over his heart. A short silence descends before he speaks again. “Sooo… About my dick...” He drops his head against the back of the couch. “Fuck. I can’t believe we’re talkin’ about this.”

“You don’t have to.”

“Yeah. I do…It’s been this way since I hit my forties.” Staring up at the ceiling, he laughs without humor. “After a long night cleanin’ up messes, the brothers always wanted to drop by whatever Sacred Sinner clubhouse was closest to get our dicks wet. It used to be fun. Fuckin’ available pussy. No strings. It was easy. I didn’t know their names. They didn’t give a fuck about mine.” Sunshine trails his fingertips down my calves and massages my feet.

“You sure you wanna hear this?” he checks by lolling his head to the side, and I nod, not wanting to interrupt his story.

Sunshine continues to nod twice as if convincing himself this is what he should do. “At some point, it stopped bein’ fun, and I stopped gettin’ off. If I did, which took fuckin’ forever, it didn’t feel like much. So, I didn’t bother with quick hookups anymore. There was this woman. Brunette. Younger. She liked me just fine. We’d fool around whenever I was close by. It never mattered much, but she didn’t care if I came. We had a good time, and she helped me come to terms with this issue.”

A companionable silence settles between us as the hot man rubbing my feet gathers his thoughts. I’m happy to wait. It doesn’t take all that long before he clears his throat and powers through. “It feels good when we fuck, Sweets. Don’t think I don’t enjoy it. I do. It’s just… some wires are crossed down there.” He gestures to his crotch. “I get right there, on the edge, and can’t finish.”

“Is there something I can do to help?” I ask, willing to do whatever it takes.

“Be you. That’s about it. I can’t get hard when you’re not around, and when I get home, I’m fuckin’ hard all the goddamn time.”

I chuckle.

“What?” He stares at me, a small, naughty smile ticking up at the corner of his lips. “It’s true. You’ve felt him rubbin’ your ass every morning for years. He’s like a dog sniffin’ out his owner.”

A laugh bubbles out of my throat. “You’re ridiculous.”

“Maybe. But it’s true. Me. The man, loves you.” Sunshine points to his mouthwatering chest. “And he does, too.” His gaze flicks down to the other part of him I’m very fond of. “If I had it my way, I’d be comin’ in ya ten times a day.”

Another laugh bursts free, and I nudge his leg with my heel. “Colton.”

“What? You think I’m lyin’?” To prove his point, the naughty man pulls the top of his sweats down and shows me his fully erect cock with a pearl of precum coming from the slit. I lick my lips, and he shoves his dick back into his pants. “You aren’t touchin’ him today.”

What? That’s not fair. You don’t get to show methatand take it away.

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