Page 13 of The Heart

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The van is crowded. Not just because Sebastian is a very large man, and I’m not much shorter, but because it was outfitted for surveillance, not for three people fucking. This isn’t the first time we’ve managed to make do. Knowing how much it pisses Ryan off when we have sex in here only makes it that much better. We always manage to unplug something, but that’s because he has cords running fucking everywhere.

It’s nearly pitch black once the door is closed, but we don’t need lights, not when we know each other’s bodies as well as our own. I take off my shirt, then find my way to the floor.

Leena grabs my hand, pulling it toward where she’s kneeling beside Sebastian and has been struggling with the buttons on his shirt. He’s lying on his back and I smile, trailing my fingers over the already exposed skin, then letting my hand rest on the heaving chest of our man.

Myman?

What are we?This isn’t the first time I’ve questioned what we are, but whatever the label, I know beyond a doubt that it’s so much more than just roommates.

Because this,us,is everything to me. We don’t need labels, and we don’t have to be anything in public if Sebastian isn’t comfortable with that yet. What we haveis enough. Knowing he’s mine, even if no one else does, is enough.Isn’t it?

It has to be.

From where I’m kneeling beside him, I make quick work of Sebastian’s buttons, then pull his shirt to either side, running my hands over the abdominal muscles beneath. I let out a breath, because I’ve wanted to touch this man all fucking night. I leave one palm pressed against him, then reach out to find Leena, my fingers brushing her cheek as I guide her lips to mine. I kiss her, enjoying the feeling of being this close to both of them.

My hand moves down lower on Sebastian’s body, my lips never leaving Leena’s as my fingers dip into his waistband, causing him to shudder. I quickly undo his button and drag down his zipper. I reach inside, gasping against Leena’s mouth when my hand wraps around his cock.

He’s so fucking hard already.

Leena helps me out, yanking Sebastian’s pants down and pulling them all the way off him.

His deep voice practically hums when I grasp his dick tighter, then run my thumb over the tip, just how I know he likes it.

“Fuck, Lu,” he breathes out and my own breath begins to quicken as I feel him pulsing in my palm. I give him a few rough strokes, simply because I need to hear him make that sound again.

Which he does.

My pants are suddenly excruciatingly tight. Leena must have guessed as much, because her hands are there, quickly helping me out of them.

We’re all completely naked now, so I drag Leena down on top of Sebastian with me. The three of us quickly find a comfortable embrace of bare skin and kisses, our hands gripping and feeling each other like we can’t possibly get enough of this moment.

Fucking in the light, where I can see every detail has always been a favorite of mine. But making love in the dark? Where all we have is the feel of our bodies and the sounds of our breathing, our pleasure? Is something else entirely.

And I love every fucking second of it.

Love that we get to do this every single night.

Which, we absolutely do.

I feel Sebastian’s hand find its way to my cock and I let out a breath as he grips me. He starts off slow, but when he begins moving faster, I have to reach down to grab his wrist, stopping him before I explode. Because I want to come inside one of them, not make a mess all over the van.

Well, I do enjoy that too, but after seeing them both all dressed up tonight I just need to be close to them.

Sebastian’s grip leaves me entirely, which I know is what I needed him to do, but it leaves me frantic to get that contact back.

I love when he touches me, when he kisses me, the way our tongues tangle together when we’re alone. I love that he lets me fuck him, even if I haven’t found the courage to let him take me in that way. And he’s okay with that. He’s willing to give me the time I need to figure this out. I love that about him.

I furrow my eyes as a thought suddenly crosses my mind. It’s not intentional, and it’s certainly not something I planned on.

Ever.

This man… he’s just gotten under my skin lately. The same way that Leena did.

Fuck.

I think I’m in love with him.

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